Something that's been on my mind.

Ill say this journal is very different, somewhat something people often will not want to hear about or just not want to get involved, but I just felt I wanted to say it, haha, so here goes I guess.

So some know that I am Christian and have been since early childhood. Throughout my life, I have heard talking with friends and acquaintances about how they have had bad experiences with other Christians and its sad to see and hear so much of that now.
When I was younger, I learned about God and Jesus, and his love for everyone, but often now, I see all these Christian groups and individuals not showing the love of God, but trying to condemn people with that whole "turn or burn" type thing they do, and I honestly can't understand how they think what they are doing is ok. I think back about examples of how Jesus showed love to everyone no matter who they were, didn't matter. And if this is the case and Christians are supposed to aim to be like Jesus, how does that fit with these that you see with the judgemental signs on the street, the condemning words. It doesn't add up.

I was watching a movie today called "father of lights" and it was really encouraging for me. It was a documentary that went around and showed Christian individuals and groups that would go to the last places you would think they would go, and the awesome thing is, they didn't go to judge and condemn, they didn't go to "convert" anyone, all they wanted to do was love on people and nothing else. I love what one of them was saying: I don't do this to try to convert anyone or judge, I don't go to make them believe, I just want people to know that there is someone there that loves them, no matter who they are and what they have done, there is a god that cares for them. Wether or not they believe it, if they reject it, that's fine move on, but if there is an opportunity for me to show gods love, I'll do it, and ill be the one to say hey, Jesus loves you.

So good. Seeing that movie really encouraged me. Especially after I did encounter some of those "turn and burn" christians while out one day, they didn't know I was christian but this guy with a sign that said something along the lines of "you will be judged! repent now!" yelled at me to change my ways, that irked me so much. How is that showing love in any way, you don't know the person you're trying to "get at" you arent responding out of love, people like those somehow have this idea they are these giant ambassadors of "the truth" when they are missing the goal of what they should be doing, loving people, true unconditional love, seeing people how god see's them. They aren't some great high powered people who are greater than those who arent "christian", like seriously, I hate seeing people like that who think that :oh im "christian" so I am so much better and I know everything you should do and not do! So annoying, I think everyone is human, and everyone is on the same level, people do good, bad, whatevs, I don't think anyone should be placed on some super mega high pedestal like that. Isn't right.

I know this journal is just ranting, idk if people will read it, but its something I just wanted to say. For all those friends and other acquaintences who ran into those judging condemning "christians" I just wish I could apologize for those experiences. Its not ok that there are people who are doing stuff like that, its heck of a lot more wrong than anything that they are trying to condemn people for that they say is "wrong"

I guess Ill end this by saying, if anyone of you think that me being christian would make me think or act anyway like some of those that sadly are around, don't think that please, you should never expect me to judge, condemn, feel uncomfortable cause "he only hans out with "holy" people" heck no, But I will probably just be a friendly guy as much as I can be and love on all of you, cause I believe thats how I should be. Not cause some verse tells me too, but thats what I believe is right, and if Jesus was having that kinda mindset and actions, thats what I want to do. Ill not ever try to push my beliefs on anyone, Ill just be me, and if people like "me" cool, if not, oh well, but whatevs, haha.

Anyways, yeah long ish journal, just speakin what was on the mind.

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