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becomeing myself
17 years ago
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i was all ways an outcars never haveing more then 1 real frind and 2 or 3 fake ones just waiting to take atvantage of me, i spent most my younger school years eating lunch by my self being teased all day for being dinfrant slow or fat... even wheni was skinny i would spind my lunch time up in a tree or diging worms up with my 1 frind a boy that liked me only cus my dad rode a motersikal to pick me up 1 day, fake a freind as he was he was the closest freind i had that that age.
later i made a real freind sarah she became my best frind from middle school to the begening of clage rathere i sould say my only real frind as she was not a varry good best freind. and there was plenty of ppl to pretent to be my freind wile waiting to use me. as u can gathere i was never populer in any way and spent most of my time waching othere ppl make plains to hang out or eat lunch togethere or go shoping wile i sat off a lown blowing bubbes or climing a tree ...
ppl didi not understand why i would chace buterflys or sneek on to the roof to wach the ppl below pass by i remiber geting in a lot of trubal for eating my lunch on top of the jim blowing bubals and wisaling all the time...
never theless my last year of high school and only becuse i was a sener the freshmen looked up at me and i became instntly populer. i could not handal the stress of populerity and ended up atimpting to kill my self i swallowed 150 pills and chuged them all down with night quill mom wock up to find me crying waiting for the pills to put me to sleep and she forced me to thow up and rushed me to the hospidal.
thay pumped my stumic 2 times andput me on a 3 day hold.
i have told u this so u under stand my sercamstances for whut happened next.
wile i was in the 3 day hold i didi a lot of thinking about my self whut i had dun so far in my 18 year life who i was and whut i whunted to do with my life.
i had all ways been an artist and had never whuted to do anything but be an artist, however i had all so dun more in the 18 years at that time then most the 40+ yearolds i know at that time.
by the age of 18 i had been to 31 stats atstblished a comuity garden won valinter of the year tot 2-4 yearolds how to swim worked at a camp for disabled kids tot an art class at a cherch for 6 munths and sang ona creus ship... i had been to both canida and mexico sevral times i had worked at homless shelters and razed 3 trucks worth of toys clothing and books for fmilys in need, all by my self. i realized i had done more good then all the bad ppl had dun to me and that i was not ment to die yet.
i desided from that point on i didi not care whut ppl didi or thoght a bout me i was no loger going to be the person thay whunted me to pretent to be rathere i was going to be true to my self and act as i whunted dress as i whunted and do as i whunted... if for no othere reson then pretending to be someone othere then myself is whut got me where i was at that time.
wheni graduwated high school i when on to go to a local JC to mager in art...
i became known as cat not katie not catherine even thow thay sometimes called me catherine 90% of the time i was called cat just the way i had all ways whunted it my freind sarah soon moved a way and wile i remaind freinds with her i finaly made more frinds real ones and one that like me for me not some fake person i was pertending to be to make otheres happy...
1 year after i started callage there i met a group of ppl that wached anime played MMRPGs and games like Dand D thay dressed the way thay whunted to acted thay way thay whunted to and spoke the truth no mater whutit was i had finaly found my place ina grup of ppl that where being true to them selfs.
i have been going to that JC for 5 years not and have 1 year left befor going to a UC i know that sounds a bit long but im learning disabled my self so i take less classes at a time as so i can get good grades i get mostly As and Bs and i have goted 3 Cs so far i have only ever droped 1 class and it was becuse i inrolled in the rong one so i realy dont count it.
even from the end up high schhol i started to notice behaverts that were cat like in the way i askted like purring when geting a back rub or mueing when i was startaled.
ppl found it a bit odd at callage but liked me for it i think so i wisal blow bubles mue and pur when ever the mood hits me and know one minds at all... in fact in class 1 day wheni waas not playing anyatinchen dering roll call , when my name was alled i mued and wile some ppl LOLed the teacher smiled and and cept going like it was ordanary for some one named cat to mue.
well here it is sumer 2008 and iv come a long way since 2003 wheni have to say the old me died and the realy me was finalty set free.
all so i met my 1st rl furry just about 2 weeks or less a go i had met hima long time go but never realy got to know him... i dont think he was a furry then so i think like me he was set free between time.
he asked me if i was a furry and after giving it some thoght i told him no but im probly 2 years a way from being one.
that being sead let me clearly say this...
i am not seeking some one to shere my bed with but rathere some one to shere my life with.
if u dont understand whut i meen, whut i mean is im looking for freinds nothing more just ppl who i can be true with and ppl who are true to me.
later i made a real freind sarah she became my best frind from middle school to the begening of clage rathere i sould say my only real frind as she was not a varry good best freind. and there was plenty of ppl to pretent to be my freind wile waiting to use me. as u can gathere i was never populer in any way and spent most of my time waching othere ppl make plains to hang out or eat lunch togethere or go shoping wile i sat off a lown blowing bubbes or climing a tree ...
ppl didi not understand why i would chace buterflys or sneek on to the roof to wach the ppl below pass by i remiber geting in a lot of trubal for eating my lunch on top of the jim blowing bubals and wisaling all the time...
never theless my last year of high school and only becuse i was a sener the freshmen looked up at me and i became instntly populer. i could not handal the stress of populerity and ended up atimpting to kill my self i swallowed 150 pills and chuged them all down with night quill mom wock up to find me crying waiting for the pills to put me to sleep and she forced me to thow up and rushed me to the hospidal.
thay pumped my stumic 2 times andput me on a 3 day hold.
i have told u this so u under stand my sercamstances for whut happened next.
wile i was in the 3 day hold i didi a lot of thinking about my self whut i had dun so far in my 18 year life who i was and whut i whunted to do with my life.
i had all ways been an artist and had never whuted to do anything but be an artist, however i had all so dun more in the 18 years at that time then most the 40+ yearolds i know at that time.
by the age of 18 i had been to 31 stats atstblished a comuity garden won valinter of the year tot 2-4 yearolds how to swim worked at a camp for disabled kids tot an art class at a cherch for 6 munths and sang ona creus ship... i had been to both canida and mexico sevral times i had worked at homless shelters and razed 3 trucks worth of toys clothing and books for fmilys in need, all by my self. i realized i had done more good then all the bad ppl had dun to me and that i was not ment to die yet.
i desided from that point on i didi not care whut ppl didi or thoght a bout me i was no loger going to be the person thay whunted me to pretent to be rathere i was going to be true to my self and act as i whunted dress as i whunted and do as i whunted... if for no othere reson then pretending to be someone othere then myself is whut got me where i was at that time.
wheni graduwated high school i when on to go to a local JC to mager in art...
i became known as cat not katie not catherine even thow thay sometimes called me catherine 90% of the time i was called cat just the way i had all ways whunted it my freind sarah soon moved a way and wile i remaind freinds with her i finaly made more frinds real ones and one that like me for me not some fake person i was pertending to be to make otheres happy...
1 year after i started callage there i met a group of ppl that wached anime played MMRPGs and games like Dand D thay dressed the way thay whunted to acted thay way thay whunted to and spoke the truth no mater whutit was i had finaly found my place ina grup of ppl that where being true to them selfs.
i have been going to that JC for 5 years not and have 1 year left befor going to a UC i know that sounds a bit long but im learning disabled my self so i take less classes at a time as so i can get good grades i get mostly As and Bs and i have goted 3 Cs so far i have only ever droped 1 class and it was becuse i inrolled in the rong one so i realy dont count it.
even from the end up high schhol i started to notice behaverts that were cat like in the way i askted like purring when geting a back rub or mueing when i was startaled.
ppl found it a bit odd at callage but liked me for it i think so i wisal blow bubles mue and pur when ever the mood hits me and know one minds at all... in fact in class 1 day wheni waas not playing anyatinchen dering roll call , when my name was alled i mued and wile some ppl LOLed the teacher smiled and and cept going like it was ordanary for some one named cat to mue.
well here it is sumer 2008 and iv come a long way since 2003 wheni have to say the old me died and the realy me was finalty set free.
all so i met my 1st rl furry just about 2 weeks or less a go i had met hima long time go but never realy got to know him... i dont think he was a furry then so i think like me he was set free between time.
he asked me if i was a furry and after giving it some thoght i told him no but im probly 2 years a way from being one.
that being sead let me clearly say this...
i am not seeking some one to shere my bed with but rathere some one to shere my life with.
if u dont understand whut i meen, whut i mean is im looking for freinds nothing more just ppl who i can be true with and ppl who are true to me.
