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THE MONTHLY UPDATE
13 years ago
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well i finally figured out where the hell i went wrong with my drawing i think!
It seemed to have stemmed from when i did a "reboot" waaay back in late 2008. I hit a point of stagnation, which was due to the fact that at the time I kinda didn't practice basic fundamentals and just went at it. I was in that mindset you see on DeviantArt where its all like "omg i dont need anatomee cartoons aren't realistic!!!1". Wouldn't recommend it folks. After that I decided to go all the way back to square one and do all of the things I should've done before. I decided I'd also have a bit more self-criticism so I don't fall back into making those sloppy drawings again.
...except it seems by doing that I created an even bigger problem. Because slowly over time I got more and more critical of what I drew, expecting to be at some standard that I never even reached. It got to the point where I'd even quit a drawing barely even several strokes in just because one line was off. The things I posted in my gallery during that time were more or less "lucky breaks", because I'd fall right back into it immediately afterwards.
It wasn't until a week or so ago I decided to look back at my older works from '05-'07 (back when I crapped out artwork). I started to cringe and make fun of how ugly they were. But despite how ugly they were they had something in common: I still went through with them. I asked myself why the hell can't I seem to do anything right despite drawing better than before?
It was because I wasn't so damn hard on myself back then. The entire time I was thinking the problem was with the way I was drawing, but it was actually how I was seeing it.
So with that in mind, I'm starting to take measures on ridding myself of this overblown self-criticism, allowing myself to inevitably make and fix mistakes and working with the ability I have now (it'll get better overtime with regular study). Couldn't tell ya when I'll be seriously active again but I thought I'd let you know (again) that I'm still trying ok. :V
tl;dr I unwittingly gave myself overblown self-criticism that created a 4-year art block and I'm only just now realizing this a week ago. Great job Rage!
It seemed to have stemmed from when i did a "reboot" waaay back in late 2008. I hit a point of stagnation, which was due to the fact that at the time I kinda didn't practice basic fundamentals and just went at it. I was in that mindset you see on DeviantArt where its all like "omg i dont need anatomee cartoons aren't realistic!!!1". Wouldn't recommend it folks. After that I decided to go all the way back to square one and do all of the things I should've done before. I decided I'd also have a bit more self-criticism so I don't fall back into making those sloppy drawings again.
...except it seems by doing that I created an even bigger problem. Because slowly over time I got more and more critical of what I drew, expecting to be at some standard that I never even reached. It got to the point where I'd even quit a drawing barely even several strokes in just because one line was off. The things I posted in my gallery during that time were more or less "lucky breaks", because I'd fall right back into it immediately afterwards.
It wasn't until a week or so ago I decided to look back at my older works from '05-'07 (back when I crapped out artwork). I started to cringe and make fun of how ugly they were. But despite how ugly they were they had something in common: I still went through with them. I asked myself why the hell can't I seem to do anything right despite drawing better than before?
It was because I wasn't so damn hard on myself back then. The entire time I was thinking the problem was with the way I was drawing, but it was actually how I was seeing it.
So with that in mind, I'm starting to take measures on ridding myself of this overblown self-criticism, allowing myself to inevitably make and fix mistakes and working with the ability I have now (it'll get better overtime with regular study). Couldn't tell ya when I'll be seriously active again but I thought I'd let you know (again) that I'm still trying ok. :V
tl;dr I unwittingly gave myself overblown self-criticism that created a 4-year art block and I'm only just now realizing this a week ago. Great job Rage!
I'm glad to see you're back.
it's still gonna be a little while before I'm "back" back, but I'll probably start chucking things in scraps every now and then.