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13 years ago
So, I figured I'd update you guys..
So sorry for my absence and such, I feel horrible for everything. v_v
I recently moved to a school further north in Norway, and.. I hate it. I hate the school. So much. It's horrible.
I only get one day off the entire week, and the day ends at about 10:00pm on saturdays.
It's obligatory to listen to the religious bullshit the school comes up with, and I have to search for permission 3 days ahead if I want to sleep over somewhere.
People are so... argh, what should I call it.. immature. I don't feel like I have the slightest spark of chemistry with a single person here, which makes me kind of lonely. The internet is bullshit, so I struggle to keep in touch with my other friends who've spread across the country as well. It's slightly, but surely tearing me apart and I've become slightly depressed.
Luckily, my boyfriend lives about 30 minutes away by train, but again, since he's a.. guy, he doesn't get to sleep over at my school/my room, because the teachers are christian. I don't have anything against christians or something, but I don't like it when they take control of /my/ life.
Argh..
I've also been superbusy this summer. Working my ass off, went to Eurofurence (which was a blast btw), and then school. It's been really physically stressing, and my mum thinks I'm pathetic because I want to quit the school and get a job.
I feel like crap when I'm here. God damnit.
She's giving me a bit of money each month so I can spend on things, since I don't have the time for a job when I'm at school ++, but if I quit school to try and get a job, she would not support me with the same amount of money, because it was.. well, as she said, pathetic.
So I'm currently a bit stressed out and worried about what to do. I'm searcing around the town where my boyfriend lives to see if I actually manage to get a job. I really do hope so. It would be such a relief.
About comissions, I'm terribly sorry for taking so long.
I'll give you all who's waiting a free icon as a little apology for taking so long. |D;
I will be finishing them asap, I promise, but for now, I need to focus on my mental health a bit...
I'm going to see a psychologist soon, so I hope I get some things sorted out...
I can't do anything else but apologize to you guys, and I really hope you will bear with me through this shit. As I said, I'll give you an icon as an apology.
- Pumzie
So sorry for my absence and such, I feel horrible for everything. v_v
I recently moved to a school further north in Norway, and.. I hate it. I hate the school. So much. It's horrible.
I only get one day off the entire week, and the day ends at about 10:00pm on saturdays.
It's obligatory to listen to the religious bullshit the school comes up with, and I have to search for permission 3 days ahead if I want to sleep over somewhere.
People are so... argh, what should I call it.. immature. I don't feel like I have the slightest spark of chemistry with a single person here, which makes me kind of lonely. The internet is bullshit, so I struggle to keep in touch with my other friends who've spread across the country as well. It's slightly, but surely tearing me apart and I've become slightly depressed.
Luckily, my boyfriend lives about 30 minutes away by train, but again, since he's a.. guy, he doesn't get to sleep over at my school/my room, because the teachers are christian. I don't have anything against christians or something, but I don't like it when they take control of /my/ life.
Argh..
I've also been superbusy this summer. Working my ass off, went to Eurofurence (which was a blast btw), and then school. It's been really physically stressing, and my mum thinks I'm pathetic because I want to quit the school and get a job.
I feel like crap when I'm here. God damnit.
She's giving me a bit of money each month so I can spend on things, since I don't have the time for a job when I'm at school ++, but if I quit school to try and get a job, she would not support me with the same amount of money, because it was.. well, as she said, pathetic.
So I'm currently a bit stressed out and worried about what to do. I'm searcing around the town where my boyfriend lives to see if I actually manage to get a job. I really do hope so. It would be such a relief.
About comissions, I'm terribly sorry for taking so long.
I'll give you all who's waiting a free icon as a little apology for taking so long. |D;
I will be finishing them asap, I promise, but for now, I need to focus on my mental health a bit...
I'm going to see a psychologist soon, so I hope I get some things sorted out...
I can't do anything else but apologize to you guys, and I really hope you will bear with me through this shit. As I said, I'll give you an icon as an apology.
- Pumzie
Jeg går på bakketun fhs, står at religion og sånn ikke er nødvendig og ikke blir tvunget på deg, men bitch please. Jeg ble sendt på gangen fordi jeg sa jeg ikke trodde på gud. :B
Jeg synes bare det er så sinnsykt slitsomt at de skal presse en religion på deg slik som det, samtidig å søke perm 3 dager før man sover over et sted utenfor skolen.. når det ikke går ut over fraværet. v_v; wtf.
Det å søke 3 dager i forveien når jeg er spontan slik sett og kan finne på å bare bli over natten, er det utrolig irriterende xD;
Jeh, de har foredrag her om morgenen og sånn, men når jeg ble spurt om min mening om Gud, svarte jeg at jeg ikke ville uttale meg. Når de direkte tvang meg til å uttale meg, og jeg svarte med at jeg ikke var troende, ble jeg sendt på gangen. |D;
Og jah, det er akkurat det.. og det er derfor jeg synes det er så plagsomt av mamma å holde meg her, fordi hun ikke vil støtte meg bittelitt med samme pengesum i lommepenger jeg får nå, mens jeg søker jobb..
*sigh* I just wish my mom would do the same |D;
It would be easier that way, then I actually could move out asap and begin the job search properly. ._.
I have found some places where they need employees, but I still got to consider them since I'm studying oo'
I'm open for any type of job, so I'd be glad if you wanted to help me out a bit! <3
A message to your mom, kind of: I wasn't quite sure what I wanted to work as in the future, so me and my best friend kind of randomly stumbled across an arts and crafts teacher-education and thought "Well, it's creative and we like that stuff (we had both taken Tegning, Form og Farge/Arts in high school/videregående), we'll get cheap housing in that tiny town and when we're done the pay is okay... and we'll get a long summer holiday, heh!" So we decided rather randomly to do that. We both completed the bachelor in flying colors, she took one year extra to become an adjunct and I started a master. Well in to the second year of the master I started getting doubts if this was what I wanted and these doubts grew so great that I eventually dropped out. I still got 60 study points for completing the first year of the master, so I was now also an adjunct. But my desire to work as a teacher in public school was just gone and I realized I'd just taken this education because it was expected of me. I ended up taking work in a lady's clothing store and stayed there for three years, then I started working in profiling (advertising and signs), which I really like. But I don't have the right education and my payment will there fore never be what it could have been. And I simply can't see my self taking up more loan at the time (also I can't get much more student loan). So, my student loan is pretty big and takes more of my rather small income each month then I'd like and... my best friend went in the same trap! Also like this, I can't afford to buy a place to live, the bank would laugh at me... so I'm forced to rent.
My point is, DON'T jump in to the first and seemingly best education right away! Working for a while and even trying out some different jobs may be just what you need to figure out what you really wanna do with your life. Best advise I can give anyone who's not really sure what kind of future job they want.
Therefore I just wish to look for a job, and get away from this school, so I could focus on one thing at a time. But when my mom won't support me with the same amount of money as she does now, it won't work out. I need to pay for rent and food, and when I've got no income... Well yeah.
So if I don't get a job, I'll be stuck at this school v_v *sigh*
I don't really see the problem in quitting, since it's cheaper than continuing it and being depressed at the same time.
And sucks with the loans...
That's what I'm afraid of, so I'm hoping to get a small income before I start studying. I: I guess that some people just don't understand that.. Parents lD
Motivation is needed for education, without it would be a hard struggle through all them years.
If you want to get a job, then go for it. I'm sorry for saying it, but screw your mom if she thinks that's pathetic. It's your life, and you should do what you wanna do that makes you happy.
I agree with what MsObscure said, find out what you wanna work with in the future by experimenting with different jobs and stuff. Then after some time, you will have a more precise knowledge of what kind of education and school you want.
That's just some of my quick thoughts. So yea, stay strong hun!
And this Christianity stuff, wow what the fuck.. believe what one want to believe, its a free country. aaand I think I'll leave it here, before I make some "random" readers mad.
I'd gladly give a fuck about what my mom says, but the hard part is that she won't give me any economical support if I quit, while I'm looking for a place to work.
That is what makes everything so much harder. If I quit without a job, I'll have to go back home.. which I do not want to do, because I feel like shit there, and I live hours away from everyone. ._.
Argos was so kind to offer me a place to stay meanwhile, so my plan is to temporary move in with him, until I get a stable economy and I can afford to move to my own place.
Yeah, I know. It's driving me insane. I fully respect others religions and stuff, but they don't have to shove it down others' throat. That's just not okay.
I feel like I'm in some sort of prison while I'm here, so the longer I stay, the worse it gets. x_x So I really hope I'll manage to get out of here soon...
Håper du finner ut av ting. *hug*