Yeah I've tried to quit before but failed. This is the time I want it to work. I'm doing it for me. I'm having a difficult time though for some reason and I dunno why. I was close to fighting at work this morn. I dunno if it's related to quitting but I can't ignore the timing. From the times I tried to quit before I do know I become more agitated but on my defense the guys a lazy stump that does what he can get away with so fuck em I don't feel bad.

This time around since I'm using my FA more I'm thinking of keeping a lil journal record as it goes heh so this should be interesting. See I've smoked a long time. lets see.. 19-20 years. I know right WTF. I hang out with people barely older then that at times. Anyway my point is because it has been a long time it makes it that much more difficult to quit but i will. I find it more an annoyance now and I'm tired of feeling like a second rate citizen because of it. Yeah judge me negatively because i smoke, forget the fact I'm a kind gentle lil fluff that would sacrifice myself to make the lives of those i care about and those i come in contact with better with out a thought. to those that judged me poorly or made hurtful or snide remarks about me smoking do not try to be pleasant n social to me if I do quit, seriously. If you honestly think saying "eww you smell like smoke" to a smoker isn't hurtful to them then your just an idiot. I imagine it wouldn't be much different then telling a fat person their fat or an ugly person their ugly. They probably are aware of that and may even be taking steps to do something about it since there is more a health kick now a days. Point is it's simply rude n ignorant to point it out. Anyway, since society as a whole still can't learn to be tolerant and accepting of each other despite our misgivings n faults I will be trying to quit again to "fit in" better.

This is day 2... wohofubuchip out