So, it's November... I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I have been keeping to myself too much lately. There are things I have wanted to say, but usually end up deleting half way through typing. I have never been good at expressing my feelings or thoughts. I hope to be able to draw something, since it has been a couple years since i have done anything. I seem to only be able to draw well when I am depressed in some matter, which is weird considering how I have been lately. I am trying to start doing things again. I need to not get caught up in drama within my household (The whole thing over stupid shit). I have been job hunting (which I am hopeful to get a job very soon. Unemployment can only help a little) and thinking of going back to college (for a math and/or comp sci degree). Also, I have been trying to get into a routine of being healthy and running again.

With my potential jobs that I am looking at, I could either end up finishing my degree at Rutgers Camden or New Brunswick. I personally want to go to Camden, but either will do. I am looking to finish my major in Comp Sci and either minor or major in math. I have a lot of math courses under my belt, so I am definitely going to look into that.

I am looking to get a gym membership close by and start hitting up elliptical machines/tread mills hardcore. I want to be able to run like i used to. My best mile time back in the day was 5:45, I believe. That may be unreachable, but I sure as hell am going to try. I feel shitty knowing I let myself rot for the last 1-2 years(besides indoor soccer). I don't know what happened, but I am starting to get my focus back.

Thanks for reading my disaster of a journal. I don't feel like fixing any errors in this.