Well, the last couple of days have been rather emotional. I'm still trying to find my soul mate, which has spurred some loneliness and anger, and I'm still trying to figure out certain things in my life.

Currently, I understand now that I'm looking forward to going to college, getting a career in record production, meeting new people, etc. I also understand that whatever I do now is not going to last forever, and that whatever people do is their decision - you can only warn them or advise them so much.

I mean, I don't really know what to say exactly >.=.<, and I don't even know why I'm making this journal, but I guess I'm trying to say that I've been slugging on trying to advance on being a better person. I've been too emotional and too lazy - that needs to stop. I need to start remember what I have in my life, who really matters to me, and that I can only love so many people. Once people just start rejecting what I say and what I do, even if it may be from personal reasons towards the attacker, I just can't bear with them anymore. I can't be a saviour, and I certainly cannot be anyone's God - I am just a human being. I'm just a guy who likes to make, produce and edit music, who likes men more than girls and believes he's a spirit in a human body and an Eastern dragon. I can't do everything :I.

Anyways, I'll end this journal saying that this has given me more hope in life now :D. I just wish things would go by faster so I can achieve what I want now >.=.<.