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13 years ago
General
(I'm in a bad mood...you've been warned)
So, in spite of certain ...ugh, issues...the pay at my job is good atleast. I've been able to start re-acquiring the comforts of home, getting more clothes, and fixing up some of my computer issues. I can burn discs again! Also expecting another shipment of my stuff soon.
I found out at the last minute, we can wear costumes for Halloween...while I didn't have my tail back yet, I put on a fun Halloweeen-themed outfit and used my fox ears and makeup to make a quick fox costume. I think it came out ok, for a rush job. and I had a wonderful morning with my big sis taking photos, and getting a bit stuck in our backyard tree. Of what memories I have gathered so far of this new home, it may be my favorite thus far. Sitting in the tree talking to my sister, enjoying the surprisingly gorgeous, warm weather that day...
So that's something to smile about. She's not home right now, I enjoy my solitude but things can get lonely at times. I miss both my big and little sister, and Jami has been a wonderful help in many ways.
...Still. I have to say....holy sugar honey ice tea. I'm so sick of the frigging morons in everything from my fandom sto my hobbies to even my own minority . After a long day of work, I fired up Killing Floor (they've got a Halloween event going on), joined a randoms server and was greeted with "yay a fem. lol. there is a probability it is a trap though"
Wow.
are you serious? you greet a female like shes joined the game to be some sort of sexy distraction for you, and as if that isn't pathetic and off-putting enough, THEN you proceed to imply that shes some sort of screwed-up freak impersonating a trans/woman to rape someone, or whatever you people think a "hawt trap" is?! And don't even consider that the person could actually really be transgendered, and your little "joke" is a trigger for dozens of horrible memories - not that you would even know the difference between this stupid little "trap" thing and a transwoman. in your little world, anyone different than you is just some "fag" or "whore", right? I'm betting on yes.
did your parents never spank you? did you have a bowl of crap-for-brain-oats for breakfast? why havent you been beaten within an inch of your life yet by someone you know for your nasty little attitude? Is everyone around you some kind of pansy who is intimated by an illiterate, bigoted, 5 year old? sheeeesh!
This http://www.igda.org/newsletter/2012.....or-decent-men/ sums up the issue pretty well,but leaves me in a state of frustration - the idea that they won't listen to their victims but only perceived equals...they are just that freaking shallow. As far as I can tell this is true, because almost any time i have have had the "sheer audacity" to *gasp* criticize someones behavior on sites like this I usually get a response that could easily win you the "biggest personality-lacking loser of the century award" Golden classics include "ok butt-head" "wtf" and of course "yiff in hell". All very mature, productive, well thought-out, unique contributions to an intelligent adult conversation...I assume that even the perceived equals would get the same kind of response, but the mind of a <i>complete moron</i> is a puzzling thing to me so..what do I know? *shrugs*
*claps her hands together*
Wow, that felt really good.
You know, about that article...The only part of Jay and Silent Bob strikes back I liked was the ending *snickers* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l1_8wefR7c. I don't think it's exactly what the article has in mind...buuut...I miss the days when multiplayer was split-screen gaming, you were safe from the brain-rotting agony of prissy little losers, and if you DID get stuck playing against one, you could always slap him upside the head for being such a huge jerk.
I'm really rambling now but that's what journals are for no? I made glazed carrots the other day. Good stuff. I highly recommend glazed carrots. I do prefer to end things on a positive note, even if it's just about how good a certain delicacy both tastes AND is for you (well its water-logged in brown sugar but it's still a carrot, hey...)*dances around* Anger release feels great! Firs the joy of cooking and now this! Oh happy day! Night! whatever! with nocturnal roommates, it's all relative.
oh yeah, and this is awesome. It has so much relevance to my daily life now, too. *smirks* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsBN9lvmjac&feature=plcp
So, in spite of certain ...ugh, issues...the pay at my job is good atleast. I've been able to start re-acquiring the comforts of home, getting more clothes, and fixing up some of my computer issues. I can burn discs again! Also expecting another shipment of my stuff soon.
I found out at the last minute, we can wear costumes for Halloween...while I didn't have my tail back yet, I put on a fun Halloweeen-themed outfit and used my fox ears and makeup to make a quick fox costume. I think it came out ok, for a rush job. and I had a wonderful morning with my big sis taking photos, and getting a bit stuck in our backyard tree. Of what memories I have gathered so far of this new home, it may be my favorite thus far. Sitting in the tree talking to my sister, enjoying the surprisingly gorgeous, warm weather that day...
So that's something to smile about. She's not home right now, I enjoy my solitude but things can get lonely at times. I miss both my big and little sister, and Jami has been a wonderful help in many ways.
...Still. I have to say....holy sugar honey ice tea. I'm so sick of the frigging morons in everything from my fandom sto my hobbies to even my own minority . After a long day of work, I fired up Killing Floor (they've got a Halloween event going on), joined a randoms server and was greeted with "yay a fem. lol. there is a probability it is a trap though"
Wow.
are you serious? you greet a female like shes joined the game to be some sort of sexy distraction for you, and as if that isn't pathetic and off-putting enough, THEN you proceed to imply that shes some sort of screwed-up freak impersonating a trans/woman to rape someone, or whatever you people think a "hawt trap" is?! And don't even consider that the person could actually really be transgendered, and your little "joke" is a trigger for dozens of horrible memories - not that you would even know the difference between this stupid little "trap" thing and a transwoman. in your little world, anyone different than you is just some "fag" or "whore", right? I'm betting on yes.
did your parents never spank you? did you have a bowl of crap-for-brain-oats for breakfast? why havent you been beaten within an inch of your life yet by someone you know for your nasty little attitude? Is everyone around you some kind of pansy who is intimated by an illiterate, bigoted, 5 year old? sheeeesh!
This http://www.igda.org/newsletter/2012.....or-decent-men/ sums up the issue pretty well,but leaves me in a state of frustration - the idea that they won't listen to their victims but only perceived equals...they are just that freaking shallow. As far as I can tell this is true, because almost any time i have have had the "sheer audacity" to *gasp* criticize someones behavior on sites like this I usually get a response that could easily win you the "biggest personality-lacking loser of the century award" Golden classics include "ok butt-head" "wtf" and of course "yiff in hell". All very mature, productive, well thought-out, unique contributions to an intelligent adult conversation...I assume that even the perceived equals would get the same kind of response, but the mind of a <i>complete moron</i> is a puzzling thing to me so..what do I know? *shrugs*
*claps her hands together*
Wow, that felt really good.
You know, about that article...The only part of Jay and Silent Bob strikes back I liked was the ending *snickers* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l1_8wefR7c. I don't think it's exactly what the article has in mind...buuut...I miss the days when multiplayer was split-screen gaming, you were safe from the brain-rotting agony of prissy little losers, and if you DID get stuck playing against one, you could always slap him upside the head for being such a huge jerk.
I'm really rambling now but that's what journals are for no? I made glazed carrots the other day. Good stuff. I highly recommend glazed carrots. I do prefer to end things on a positive note, even if it's just about how good a certain delicacy both tastes AND is for you (well its water-logged in brown sugar but it's still a carrot, hey...)*dances around* Anger release feels great! Firs the joy of cooking and now this! Oh happy day! Night! whatever! with nocturnal roommates, it's all relative.
oh yeah, and this is awesome. It has so much relevance to my daily life now, too. *smirks* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsBN9lvmjac&feature=plcp
I know a lot of people simply say, "just ignore it and move on," but sometimes you simply can't move on (sometimes I can't). But I know you. You're a strong person. You're better than this garbage. You are a far better person than they'll turn out to be. Remember that, Krissie.
"Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together." - Red Green
Thank you, hun. I do try, it can be a bit harder to pick myself up lately because I am very estranged to my surroundings and home environment, especially with my little sister not around to hug and joke around with. I'm...trying to soak it in and call it home, but I think it's going to take a lot more time. Still, my optimism isn't completely shattered yet (atleast I hope it it isn't, sometimes I wonder if I am lying to myself about finally feeling secure and safe. I feel at times I have simply swapped certain fears for other ones. Ashley has even noticed I still have a bad shaking at times.) Now I'm just rambling, sorry. *sips her coke*
And also, I also realize a lot of people are just plain dumb and rude and have a lot of growing up to do, as well. I do forget sometimes and expect better of them though, because it's far too common to meet such shallow, mean people and it really frustrates me.