Just today my mother and I had a fight again a fight SHE started. Okay here is what started its about me getting a job. But thats what I was doing I was getting the recreational lady to help me find one. Plus we got no gas but my mother insisted on finding me a job to help pay the bills but I like talked with mom that it be impossible we got no gas I am serious its like above E.:/ I told her till we get the VA and move I will get a job and a license and besides it be a waste to do that here. I finally get one and then in 2 weeks we might leave if the VA gives us the money. But she throws a fit of how I like to sleep in. Um okay mom so do you like a 2pm in the after noon.:/ And plus she sleeps like till 8pm and sleeps the night.:/ So what will my job do we got the $909 to pay the utilities and plus the rent is free till we get the VA because the people who we pay rent to are helping us. But she throws a fit about it and I keep telling her I am trying and guys I am really trying.:stare: Its not easy finding a job I thought it was but it ain't.:/ She then talks about my age that I don't have a job and blah blah blah.:roll: Okay mom here is the thing your 41 you let two 11 year old brats treat me like dirt and you put me down and you also keep telling me you want to find a job but I don't see you do it.:/ She thinks my payment will pay rent....bull shit. I can't make that type of money and pretty much I told her I want to wait monday and find out on the VA so we can leave and move to Maryland and its around this month.:/

But guess what I found out as well...its no fucking wonder dad left.:no: I just found out when I gave her my pc before the fight she brought up about my friends am i getting a job yet when for the past 6 months we had no car but finally we do!:stare: She told them...and was talking bad about me with her friends. So I said for her to give me the pc and she throws it down but no damage is done she called me lazy. Yeah okay I am lazy I will admit that but I have been phoning and finding a job while you sit and complain to the world. But yeah she was talking bad about me with her friends.:/ So now I don't feel like going to Maryland.:grump: She fucking did that to me!:< I feel more dead now for what she did she is NEVER using my PC again she crossed that line for the last time!:grump: First dad calls me a piece of shit and now she tells her friends about me harsh things about me behind my back! I feel dead and heartbroken guys....:depressed: But...I can't leave nor do I have the money nor gas to get a job nor get to my college.

Well...thats what our plan is to move to MD but...I have to face her friends but after college...I am gone....and I am never going back to see her nor dad nor....anyone.:depressed: Thats for real.:(