I went to the doctor on Friday I got some news about my blood work that I did a while ago after my last dizzy spell the first time I've ever had really bad vertigo it scared me have my mother take me to the hospital for the next day I was in for blood work. like I said Friday I went to the doctor because I want to talk to her about the blood work and some other things that after we talk I was in no mood to talk to her about anything else that's been going on hurting found out my thyroid has slowed my testosterone level has dropped and possibly have gained nearly 100 pounds if she read scale. right yeah right now I've been very very low my emotions crashed Saturday and I nearly did something stupid thankfully did not happen however been very hard to stay happy. I can't tell you how badly I want a cigarette I haven't smoked since high school even then it wasn't much maybe a few week. My parents been smoking all my life so I guess I see the smell of nicotine and smoke as a Comfort lol would be better than the junk food I've been eating to try and feel happy but junk food not always the right choice I guess considering problems I'm having with my weight get through this to my dad's birthday is 60 now so I'm hoping maybe I get some lotto tickets he loves a scratch ticket lol but enough about this crap hope everyone else is been good and talk to ya soon I guess take care