I know I promised myself I would never post a dramatic journal ever since returning from my hiatus, but there are situations where I feel it is now warranted. I am not venting here to any particular person, or even group of furs.. so please don't consider this a rant. Ok, here goes..

I am still dealing with anxiety, which I am finding it harder and harder to deal with. And its not from the fandom, which I really enjoy being will all of you, my friends. I treasure each and every one of you, couldn't want anything more from you. Your true friendship means so much to me, which is why I make friendship bracelets for you from me for free.. You cannot put a price on that. The friendships I hope last throughout the years to come. I reckon the anxiety is coming from my own self doubt, my personal failures. and my weaknesses. I just need to figure a way to get myself out of this funk I am in now.. Leaving the fandom again would only hurt me more, I reckon.. You are all my friends and family.. more than you will ever know. Work is working me like the proverbial dog here, and it literally kills me to work 5am to 430pm, 5 days a week. The constant pressure of meeting deadlines and the raising of the bar of what to put out. I perhaps envy a lot of my fellow fur friends that can go to cons whenever and wherever they want. I do want some sort of business partner for my business Idea.. I still want to be a successful writer for the Wolf Song Series. I just need some help here.. I don't need any demands here or there from you.. I just want someone I can hold close and let me be the fur I am to be. If this is drama, I am truly sorry.. I'll just figure a way out of this funk on my own.. and I dont want to do it alone.. I AM ASKING FOR HELP.. Please..

PS.. if you want to comment on this on a positive note, post here, or you can note me here and go from there.. All I ask is no negative comments..

Hugs Licks and Nuzzles,
~Dumarsi Du La Quay~