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So Uhhh.... That was a Hiatus....
13 years ago
Well, I had a weird.... Relationship interlude thing, that ended up ending like I thought it would from the beginning. :/ Don't know why I give people the benefit of the doubt at this point and stop listening to my gut because I want to see "the good in everyone". -_- SIGH.
Stuff with relationships wrecks me like nothing else does..... Being rejected/abandoned is the most triggering/upsetting/painful thing for me to experience, due to my past/ who I am/how I developed.... :( I've honestly come close to suicide- for many, many reasons. I wouldn't kill myself over someone as selfish and heartless as this person, but it's more that I feel I am doomed to be attracted to my opposite- a selfish, heartless, detached, emotionally repressive asshole who is only out for themselves and never thinks of the feelings of other people.... x.x and all that I want is to find someone- that's all I've wanted ever since like age 13.....
Basically tons of people- including friends- have been proving to me that they are superficial and selfish, and just.... Have no goals, or morals, or whatever- no I'm not talking about morals regarding sex, or drugs, or anything like that- I'm talking about having a heart and being a god damned good PERSON....
/endrant
SO, long story short, I'm kinda back... Going to start the ball rolling on
prowler7's commission... Which I feel horribly about...x.x
and get ready for an art dump of vent art lol....
Stuff with relationships wrecks me like nothing else does..... Being rejected/abandoned is the most triggering/upsetting/painful thing for me to experience, due to my past/ who I am/how I developed.... :( I've honestly come close to suicide- for many, many reasons. I wouldn't kill myself over someone as selfish and heartless as this person, but it's more that I feel I am doomed to be attracted to my opposite- a selfish, heartless, detached, emotionally repressive asshole who is only out for themselves and never thinks of the feelings of other people.... x.x and all that I want is to find someone- that's all I've wanted ever since like age 13.....
Basically tons of people- including friends- have been proving to me that they are superficial and selfish, and just.... Have no goals, or morals, or whatever- no I'm not talking about morals regarding sex, or drugs, or anything like that- I'm talking about having a heart and being a god damned good PERSON....
/endrant
SO, long story short, I'm kinda back... Going to start the ball rolling on
prowler7's commission... Which I feel horribly about...x.xand get ready for an art dump of vent art lol....
I wish I could offer some sage advice on relationships, but no two people are alike, either in their desires or their needs.
All I can suggest is that you hang in there and continue to seek out what makes you happy. There will always be hardships and heartbreaks, but part of what makes us who we are, is our ability to surmount these struggles and find those moments of happiness that keep us going.
ANYWAY I will be uploading a somewhat colored version of the first picture in the series, and an inked version of the second picture tonight!!! ^^ I have done SOMETHING!!! xD;; I've finally had time off. :3;; I hope that you've been well!!! ;3;
It's quite alright. Your well being is always more important, and I hope that you find a way to get completely well.
Always remember to not fret the small stuff or dwell on the past. Just hang in there and keep moving forward, one day at a time, and things will find a way of working out.
I don't mind waiting for artwork, as I want it to be fun for you to draw. Though of course, I do look forward to each and every update.
Thanks for the update and I hope that your holiday season finds things picking up for you. I'm doing good here, despite being busy at work. But I can't complain about that. Heh.
That's so true- there's always tomorrow!! ^_^ and I'm always willing to correct my mistakes...
Awww, I hope your holiday season goes great!!! :D Heheh well being busy can sometimes be annoying. x.x But money is good! :3