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whining about my life *jumping on the baaww wagon*
13 years ago
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Yeah I know I always come out against this sort of thing but I figure it must help a bit because people keep doing it so here goes.
My heart is a jerk.
So I'm currently interested (by interested I mean becoming increasingly emotionally attached to and not always by choice) to a few indeviduals. Now most of the time this isn't an issue. What makes it so are a couple factors in both my own and their lives. My issue being that I've been single for a while and have begun to feel lonely. (This on its own is strange given that I exist paradoxically as an emotionally distant and logical being who has this dependancy on affection, attention and company) but I digress. The real issue comes when we examine the three people that I pine for. The first in order of level of "pine" happens to be entirely un interested in my gender for any sort of emotional relationship beyond that of "friend". The second in the list happens to be happily mated and to my disadvantage to someone I happen to like! The third isn't so dramatic as the others, we just hardly get to talk so I'm not even sure he is fully aware of my feelings, not that I am all that certain of their levels myself.
In conclusion my heart is a sadistic asshole who enjoys toying with me.
And thus we come to the part where I ask: "Am I just a fool?"
My heart is a jerk.
So I'm currently interested (by interested I mean becoming increasingly emotionally attached to and not always by choice) to a few indeviduals. Now most of the time this isn't an issue. What makes it so are a couple factors in both my own and their lives. My issue being that I've been single for a while and have begun to feel lonely. (This on its own is strange given that I exist paradoxically as an emotionally distant and logical being who has this dependancy on affection, attention and company) but I digress. The real issue comes when we examine the three people that I pine for. The first in order of level of "pine" happens to be entirely un interested in my gender for any sort of emotional relationship beyond that of "friend". The second in the list happens to be happily mated and to my disadvantage to someone I happen to like! The third isn't so dramatic as the others, we just hardly get to talk so I'm not even sure he is fully aware of my feelings, not that I am all that certain of their levels myself.
In conclusion my heart is a sadistic asshole who enjoys toying with me.
And thus we come to the part where I ask: "Am I just a fool?"
Fools have hats with bells and they can flip upside-down a lot.
No, no-one chooses who they fall in love with.
I know that better than anyone.
In your case, love seems more complicated just because of what you like, so the people willing to have a relationship with you, and still be okay with you pursuing your chosen lifestyle, is a little limited. That makes things hard.
If you ever want to talk about stuff, you know you can text me.
Talk to you later :3
You are capable of being friends and lovers with someone else who would return your interest and affection. It is up to you to hunt for them; the tooth fairy isn't going to bring them into your life.