everyone has that time they need to heal. i am normaly one of the fastest. but.. this year has stuck me down and ripped me apart. it was one thing after another. lost a job lost a home, brush with death. found out my friends were rapers, took it so i could have roof over my head. None did a damn thing. i was close to giving up. and when i thought it couldn't get any wrose. i lost my truck. but that was a good thing. someone saved me helped me get my truck back, help me recover. moved in with my sister, things got better. things are moving along. i feel better. then one person that gave me so much trouble duing my time of hard ships didnt have simple blew me off. Is that kind of blow off that grabs you.
i said something that could have easly been turned into a good relaxing convo. because, some upset me that happend to a SL viewer. some about sl upset this person that hates me (feeling is mutual) but what i said wasn't an attack. but its taken as a hit. and i get everyones full force "how dear you"


THAT REALLY PISSED ME OFF.

that night '11/12/12' i blew up, my full fury was at the door ready to kick it down. i ended up arguing with someone i care about. and crying the rest of the night. because i couldn't get anyone to see or understand my hurt. my wound.