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First and foremost... A thank you to you all...
13 years ago
Listen to this while reading this please.
If you're reading this since following my now abandoned page, it means you want to continue watching me through my ever-so pained journey as a struggling illustrator and ... I guess a furry. xD
I guess I should start by explaining myself. I've abandoned the name, "Blibbles." It's been a rather fun ride... I've had plenty of conversations with all of you. Good, bad, confusing, disdainful, and memorable. I have to admit, I'm much closer to the fandom here than I am on any other illustration site. I can remember almost each and every one of you, and the conversations I've had and when. You're all unique in some form. You've all seen me progress from beginning to end, struggle with my life issues, talk about stuff that was nonsensical, and now... metamorphose into a new identity, to which I am no longer Blibbles, or Alto. I guess my new Fursona alias is now Kine. Kine Visean. I am now closer to my actual name than I was before.
You see... I've been growing up a bit, little by little. As you all have. I've grown now, to the point I'm actually happy with my physical self and mental self. I used to feel like, being Alto Mwy was the only way I was going to be popular. By being a slightly chubby, cute character. Something that I wasn't physically. I used to despise being thin. That's how Alto came to be. Purely out of the mindset to be what I can't. I struggled with this mindset for so long. It pained me that not a lot of people wanted to know me after they learned that Alto was actually a thin Asian guy.
Coming now to be 23, going on 24 next year, I stopped hating myself. I realized that there's no shame in being me. I've got no one to prove to that I'm attractive, and fine as I am. That there'll always be someone who wants me for me, and nothing superfluous as me being chubby. So I finally learned to embrace who I am. I'm Sebastian, my fursona, Kine Visean, is as close to my name as I can get. My name in Chinese is "Sun Dragon." Gheet Leung. So thusly... I chose to be a Dragon. He's still not me completely, but definitely getting closer. Hahaha. It's not that I don't like myself. I feel closer to this personification than anything else. Even if I do like Pandas as much as I do.
Anyway... I'm rambling. It's been fun being Blibbles, but it's time I moved on and left that name behind. On to my next journey. And later... I'll come to abandon this name too, probably. Maybe I won't need a name. Maybe I won't have to hide my name anymore. Maybe... everyone will just see only me, and no one else I've created. : )
Thanks for coming with me, and joining me for this. I don't care how many watchers I have... 50, 500, 2000... I may not know all of you personally, and what we've exchanged between each other is our own experience of each other, but you're all special and unique, and knowing that you guys are going to continue watching me is all I need to know to keep drawing.
Thank you.
-Kine
If you're reading this since following my now abandoned page, it means you want to continue watching me through my ever-so pained journey as a struggling illustrator and ... I guess a furry. xD
I guess I should start by explaining myself. I've abandoned the name, "Blibbles." It's been a rather fun ride... I've had plenty of conversations with all of you. Good, bad, confusing, disdainful, and memorable. I have to admit, I'm much closer to the fandom here than I am on any other illustration site. I can remember almost each and every one of you, and the conversations I've had and when. You're all unique in some form. You've all seen me progress from beginning to end, struggle with my life issues, talk about stuff that was nonsensical, and now... metamorphose into a new identity, to which I am no longer Blibbles, or Alto. I guess my new Fursona alias is now Kine. Kine Visean. I am now closer to my actual name than I was before.
You see... I've been growing up a bit, little by little. As you all have. I've grown now, to the point I'm actually happy with my physical self and mental self. I used to feel like, being Alto Mwy was the only way I was going to be popular. By being a slightly chubby, cute character. Something that I wasn't physically. I used to despise being thin. That's how Alto came to be. Purely out of the mindset to be what I can't. I struggled with this mindset for so long. It pained me that not a lot of people wanted to know me after they learned that Alto was actually a thin Asian guy.
Coming now to be 23, going on 24 next year, I stopped hating myself. I realized that there's no shame in being me. I've got no one to prove to that I'm attractive, and fine as I am. That there'll always be someone who wants me for me, and nothing superfluous as me being chubby. So I finally learned to embrace who I am. I'm Sebastian, my fursona, Kine Visean, is as close to my name as I can get. My name in Chinese is "Sun Dragon." Gheet Leung. So thusly... I chose to be a Dragon. He's still not me completely, but definitely getting closer. Hahaha. It's not that I don't like myself. I feel closer to this personification than anything else. Even if I do like Pandas as much as I do.
Anyway... I'm rambling. It's been fun being Blibbles, but it's time I moved on and left that name behind. On to my next journey. And later... I'll come to abandon this name too, probably. Maybe I won't need a name. Maybe I won't have to hide my name anymore. Maybe... everyone will just see only me, and no one else I've created. : )
Thanks for coming with me, and joining me for this. I don't care how many watchers I have... 50, 500, 2000... I may not know all of you personally, and what we've exchanged between each other is our own experience of each other, but you're all special and unique, and knowing that you guys are going to continue watching me is all I need to know to keep drawing.
Thank you.
-Kine
Glad to hear you're happier, although I was always under the impression that you generally are happy, save for I think a journal or two~
I just learned to accept myself. I wish I did it sooner.
haha, either way, I'm really happy you are finally accepting that you are amazing the way you are and that you are one of my personal closest friends I've gained here. I hope to see you thrive and create even more than before. Regardless of what people say/will say about your art, You are a great inspiring visionary and it's time you know this.
//hugs// I'm gonna be great! You'll see! Thanks for being with me all the way through!
That aside, I'm very happy to hear you have come out of all your experience with a very positive attitude.
It will be exciting to see what the new you, or rather Visean ;), comes up with.
Gooooooooo ssssssseb!
On my opinion, you are a Dragon now.. but with a big Panda heart, hehe.. as far as names, you always were and will always be "Seb" for me. hehehe ^^ One of the nicest people around and someone I like to call a friend, even if we barely ever talk anymore.
I wish you the best on this new journey, and hopefully great things will come out of it ^^ Have fun.. make it the best ^^
As always, if you ever need a friend or someone to talk to... I'll be around ^^
*Panda hugs*
I guess I don't really know you quite as well as some... But nonetheless it was always enjoyable to watch you progressively grow and change, as both an artist as person (since I'm some weirdo who actually reads journals, JEEZE DON'T'CHU JUDGE ME).
I knew you were skinny, ya did show me a picture once upon a time. Didn't bother me in the slightest. :3 I'm glad to hear that you've grown to be happy with yourself; this needed to happen. To be comfortable in your own skin; when we achieve this, what people say or think about our appearance just bounces off us. Like a nummy jelly. Wobbly stuff. *head hits table as falls asleep*
............. *yawns*
Yup, I'll uh, save motivational rambling/comments for when I'm... Not half asleep at 2am next time.
Nonetheless. I'll be watchin' 'chu.
Anyways... Hellu!
We should get talking again.