I feel so insignificant its not funny. I have several different people that I care about that have problems that can't be or won't be changed.. and it just makes me feel awful. I am stressing over things that I shouldn't be I know, but I can't help it.
I am just tired of being so helpless all time... all my life i have sat an watched things happen to the people i love
and i will never be able to do more than listen and offer an opinion. it just destroys me. i really should just worry about myself, and my problems but i can't bring myself to do that anymore. there is no point to it. i have such a problem with letting people care about me. i always push them back, and its awful... its just along with watching my friends go through things, the ones closest to me always leave, or change, or die.. stability is something i have never had in my life. since the beginning, and probably till the end. i just feel so lonely nowadays.. i mean i have some friends and all, love em to death but none of them ever stay. i will become good friends with someone, but it just starts to fade... i haven't had a shoulder to cry on in a long ass time.. and i the only things i ever cry over are my parents and the people that gave me there shoulder, which are gone. I probably sound like a overly dramatic teenage girl with minimal problems. Sorry for the random rant, thats if you read it. Looking to expand and practice my art more, so happy bout that. And dance is just incredible right now. Also looking to make a new account, so I can have my actual username, MrTasticToast. That has been my name/nickname in real life for a very long time, and I plan to have it for as long as I can. I am going to try and get some sleep, but I doubt I will, sickness, sadness and all that jazz. Good night/day everyone ^^'