MFF came and went this weekend. I am now even further confused, I guess technically I am now single, but I still hold in my heart that just maybe things will change, that we will be together again at some point in the future.

I will always love him, and care for him. I cannot live in this fantasy forever, but I can at least try to pick up the pieces and carry on. I gave him back everything I could, I kept the ring and a set of his DnD dice, just a memory of our time together.

I will pray that things may turn around and we may yet be together again. Right now..it just hurts...and I know that it his hurting him too.

It was never his fault, it just hurts that these things happen, but maybe they all happen for a reason. I hope that is the case and I just have not seen that reason yet.

It is odd to look over my room and see the pictures, and plush of Hexter that I had....kind of makes me miss the plush more...but I know Jazken will take good care of him.