I've not had the greatest month and its all my own fault. I kind of hate myself and go through cycles of wanting to just disappear. Most of you don't even know me and the rest of you would forget me soon enough.... there are a few who would miss me but it would pass.

I hate my life, i truly do. I feel like a waste of space who isn't worthy of anything. I'm not pretty, i'm not special, I'm not anything. All I want out of life is happiness. Is that too much to ask for? I can't seem to obtain it though, no matter what i do. I'm NO WHERE near where i thought i would be by now. I'm just stuck in a never cycle of unhappiness. Sleep. Eat. Work that dead end job i hate while it sucks my soul out every day i'm there. Rinse. Repeat.

I'm in what feels like a never ending sea of debt I don't think i'll ever be free of. That's how it feels anyways. My emotional state is all over the place i go from being fine to feeling like i'm dying on the inside. Or want to. I don't know. Why are you reading this? Why did i even post it. Who cares.

I'm going to bed now so i can get a few hours of sleep before i have to force myself out of bed and work another day in hell.

I hate everything and i wish i could take it all back, back to when i was happy....back to when WE were happy......I'm sorry....

I'm just not OK today.....fml.