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Just ranting for those depressed thought....
13 years ago
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Its been already one week or more, I dunno if I will survive from kinda broken-hearted feeling I got after he did something bad (and even worse) to me. Of course, he (and his bullshit promises) already made me feels angry and depressed at once. Maybe I was gonna punch him in the face directly in real life but I still cant do it as well because I still cant forget some beautiful memories I spend with him for one year...
I admit that I cannot satisfy him as well maybe because monogamous and polygamous gay wouldn't never get along indeed. Still, I'm wondering if there are polygamous people able keeping a mutual promise which they already made the deal together ? Yeah, I know if some polygamous gay always gave a priority to sex only (or lust?).
Well, sorry for the ranting. I dunno if I can move on forward....I dunno if I sometimes miss him alot or feels kinda hollowness at my heart....At least, I still have friends who always supporting me.
Note : Sometimes I hopes that he want to be responsible for all this but I noticed that it turns out into useless deal promise.
I admit that I cannot satisfy him as well maybe because monogamous and polygamous gay wouldn't never get along indeed. Still, I'm wondering if there are polygamous people able keeping a mutual promise which they already made the deal together ? Yeah, I know if some polygamous gay always gave a priority to sex only (or lust?).
Well, sorry for the ranting. I dunno if I can move on forward....I dunno if I sometimes miss him alot or feels kinda hollowness at my heart....At least, I still have friends who always supporting me.
Note : Sometimes I hopes that he want to be responsible for all this but I noticed that it turns out into useless deal promise.
*UberHuggles*
But I've been there and I know it hurts, big guy. You gotta give yourself some time to recover. It's not something that goes away overnight. It took me a very long time to get over my last ex, but you can do it for sure. One day, you will wake up and realize "Why do I still feel this way? Why do I still hurt?" At that point you can start to rebuild your life to move forward.
Until then, you have to take it easy and just do what you can for now. Remember, it's YOU time now, Randy.
Take it easy, chief.
Yes, you're right about he did not treating me as his own boyfriend as well because I already noticed that he tried to be my BF out of pity. So I didn't know that all his treatment to me is only a lie not a pure love at all. Even its too late to realized it after my close friends tried to tell me that at the first (maybe I used to silly to believe him alot)
Thanks for support me, friend. I'll try at next time...
You're very welcome, chief. Let me know if you need to talk or anything.
It hurts alot but it is better to stop now than to live with that feeling and get unhappy. Randy but as they say.....time will heal the wounds so dont give up ok? I am sure you can overcome this, have faith in yourself
I lost My best friend, He change it his lost mind. I can't help it myself kind of scared. I let go to him. He become My EX BF. I don't have a many friends. just me alone.
One Day, I met other friend guy, He same me to talk. He just like me old time become new Best Friend.
I just help,chat and fun to good friend that made i trust someone.
I hope you met your friend good talk to trust and friendly.
*hugs* =)
*hugs back* Thanks for sharing. I'll try to moving on forward as possible as I can and I'm sure I'll find someone who want accept me as well. Thank you again.
>3< there is many good guy out of there!!!! XD
Just take it one day at a time and surround yourself with friends.