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13 years ago
This might actually be longer than most of my other posts..
So.. over 10 months ago I came out as FtM transgender and to keep it short lost my girlfriend, lost 18 friends, gained a few back and well.. 2 or 3 months later I lost my dog ..Which was the final blow I suppose and its just spiraled down from there.. I barely leave my room.. what used to be hobbies such as gaming and etc I don't do anymore and now I'm beginning to think is it being lonely or just lost ..Maybe depression taking over.. I don't know I just want someone to game with and maybe family or something
So.. over 10 months ago I came out as FtM transgender and to keep it short lost my girlfriend, lost 18 friends, gained a few back and well.. 2 or 3 months later I lost my dog ..Which was the final blow I suppose and its just spiraled down from there.. I barely leave my room.. what used to be hobbies such as gaming and etc I don't do anymore and now I'm beginning to think is it being lonely or just lost ..Maybe depression taking over.. I don't know I just want someone to game with and maybe family or something
amorehuskyenna
~amorehuskyenna
i to have just recently came out as a ftm trans gender, ever one abandoned me but a few frineds my own blood brothers tease me and ignore me... im the same way im either in my room or at the computer in my own little world and relms of zombies, ill be here for you i know ever single pain your talking about
Benjii
~benjii
OP
Once on T it gets better (5 months on T so far) but around the holidays it gets more lonesome since the family that usually would invite to dinner or something don't invite me or my mom since she supports and is actually letting me get top surgery in February ..If you need help or anything I'll be here doesn't matter if its support, a friend, or even ..real life stuff I guess.. always there for a brother
amorehuskyenna
~amorehuskyenna
my mom keeps beggining me to be her little girl... and she crys everytime she sees me.... my dad just begs me to stop freaking her out :( it hurts
Benjii
~benjii
OP
I know how you feel.. At first it was hard for my mom and didn't want to accept it (Came out with GID a year or 2 ago) ..Maybe you could sit her down and just explain you were born this way due to chromosomes basically being mixed up and your dad.. I really don't know because well.. My dad has never been in my life and doesn't understand transgender then goes off saying he wants to be a woman O_o Don't ask me about that one.. But just try to talk to her and basically educate her about it if you can
amorehuskyenna
~amorehuskyenna
i tried but then she starts crying and walks away :(
Benjii
~benjii
OP
Then do what I did and just let it settle in.. it could take a while but its worth it if things turn up ..Always have to have hope.. How long have you basically been out anyway? If you don't mind me asking
amorehuskyenna
~amorehuskyenna
well ive been out to my dad for maybe 5 months now he was like ok w.e like he dosen't care if im gay straight bi or trans, but my mom is eh, she found out a week ago because my dad let it slip... she was upset and i guess dad just said it :( but ive been out to friends for almost 2 years now
