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Black Friday Sale Incoming + Health Update
13 years ago
This is a quick note to say that tonight/tomorrow I will be offering some Black Friday commission deals! I have some offers in mind, but do you have any special requests for types of commissions you'd like to see included? Spots will be limited so keep an eye out for my journal posts. :) So far I'm planning to offer:
Con badges
Traditional pinups
Digital pieces
Character design commissions
NAIL POLISH
And POSSIBLY I'll have some adoptables made up. Maybe!
The next part is a little harder for me to talk about. It's something I've been avoiding sharing online, but I guess it's worth putting out an explanation to all the people who know me in real life and have met me at conventions in the past couple of years - or who read my previous journals about severe back problems.
Particularly at Eurofurence this year a lot of people saw that I had points where I had difficulty getting around and walking properly, and had been complaining of severe pain. For a while this had been unexplained, but we now know that the culprit behind my difficulties is that I have Hypermobility Syndrome.
Here's some information on it:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperm.....ility_syndrome
http://rheumatology.oxfordjournals....../40/5/487.full
http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/Joint-.....roduction.aspx
http://www.hypermobility.org/index.php
It'd been pointed out to me some time ago, but in a crappy haze of misunderstandings on whatever side, I wasn't told about the extent of this disease or how it was affecting my life, or how it may affect my life in years to come. In particular in the past few weeks (since the cold weather set in, whether it's related or not I have no idea) I've really struggled with all of my joints grinding, popping and subluxating more than normal, as well as the back pain. I can't do so many of the normal things I'm used to, like yesterday lifting and washing out a pot from the stove resulted in severe pain and me being unable to lift my arms above my head for over an hour.
The whole thing has caused me a lot of frustration and confusion. Frustration in that in mid 2009 I was a perfectly normal lady in my mid-20s with no issues except some migraines, then by early 2010 I couldn't walk for 10 minutes without being in agony. Confusion in that I have read that some people take years trying to have their HMS diagnosed. Mine was diagnosed within 10 minutes of walking into the physiotherapist's office, with a casual "so I see you have hypermobility" and I didn't even know what it meant at the time - I assumed he just meant my weird foot mobility/foot joints (which are a part of it) so just replied "oh uh is that what it's called". Nothing else explained to me, but then he barely spoke English either. Heh...lately I pleaded with my boyfriend Simon to help me DISprove the notion I had HMS. To go through the symptoms and tell me I didn't meet them. But I do. And you know, I don't even know how that physio diagnosed it after looking at me for 10 minutes, really just STANDING there. :/
I don't think it's sunk in yet that this problem isn't just an injury that will heal up and go away and everything will go back to normal. That this pain is here to stay and if I'm unlucky, it'll get worse. The reason I've not written about it publicly is that I don't know what to say, I don't know how to deal with it and I don't have anyone to really talk to about it. How am I handling it? Just..pretty much drifting through.
It might help explain why you're not seeing a whole lot of art from me lately, but I'm trying to motivate myself to be creative. I am finally ready to give another batch of commissions a go though, hence the Black Friday sale.
I know this is a bit of a downer and all, but do understand I'm not wallowing in self-pity about this. I don't really feel like that will help. Mostly I'm just feeling "well, this is shitty...I don't know what the hell to do about this so I'm going to do other things". And there are many other things to do! Life is very busy with my 28th birthday on Monday, Sinterklaas [Dutch Yuletime celebration] in less than 2 weeks, my driving test, moving into our new house right after, then Christmas...December will be the best time to forget about everything. :)
- Sarah / Korrok
Con badges
Traditional pinups
Digital pieces
Character design commissions
NAIL POLISH
And POSSIBLY I'll have some adoptables made up. Maybe!
The next part is a little harder for me to talk about. It's something I've been avoiding sharing online, but I guess it's worth putting out an explanation to all the people who know me in real life and have met me at conventions in the past couple of years - or who read my previous journals about severe back problems.
Particularly at Eurofurence this year a lot of people saw that I had points where I had difficulty getting around and walking properly, and had been complaining of severe pain. For a while this had been unexplained, but we now know that the culprit behind my difficulties is that I have Hypermobility Syndrome.
Here's some information on it:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperm.....ility_syndrome
http://rheumatology.oxfordjournals....../40/5/487.full
http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/Joint-.....roduction.aspx
http://www.hypermobility.org/index.php
It'd been pointed out to me some time ago, but in a crappy haze of misunderstandings on whatever side, I wasn't told about the extent of this disease or how it was affecting my life, or how it may affect my life in years to come. In particular in the past few weeks (since the cold weather set in, whether it's related or not I have no idea) I've really struggled with all of my joints grinding, popping and subluxating more than normal, as well as the back pain. I can't do so many of the normal things I'm used to, like yesterday lifting and washing out a pot from the stove resulted in severe pain and me being unable to lift my arms above my head for over an hour.
The whole thing has caused me a lot of frustration and confusion. Frustration in that in mid 2009 I was a perfectly normal lady in my mid-20s with no issues except some migraines, then by early 2010 I couldn't walk for 10 minutes without being in agony. Confusion in that I have read that some people take years trying to have their HMS diagnosed. Mine was diagnosed within 10 minutes of walking into the physiotherapist's office, with a casual "so I see you have hypermobility" and I didn't even know what it meant at the time - I assumed he just meant my weird foot mobility/foot joints (which are a part of it) so just replied "oh uh is that what it's called". Nothing else explained to me, but then he barely spoke English either. Heh...lately I pleaded with my boyfriend Simon to help me DISprove the notion I had HMS. To go through the symptoms and tell me I didn't meet them. But I do. And you know, I don't even know how that physio diagnosed it after looking at me for 10 minutes, really just STANDING there. :/
I don't think it's sunk in yet that this problem isn't just an injury that will heal up and go away and everything will go back to normal. That this pain is here to stay and if I'm unlucky, it'll get worse. The reason I've not written about it publicly is that I don't know what to say, I don't know how to deal with it and I don't have anyone to really talk to about it. How am I handling it? Just..pretty much drifting through.
It might help explain why you're not seeing a whole lot of art from me lately, but I'm trying to motivate myself to be creative. I am finally ready to give another batch of commissions a go though, hence the Black Friday sale.
I know this is a bit of a downer and all, but do understand I'm not wallowing in self-pity about this. I don't really feel like that will help. Mostly I'm just feeling "well, this is shitty...I don't know what the hell to do about this so I'm going to do other things". And there are many other things to do! Life is very busy with my 28th birthday on Monday, Sinterklaas [Dutch Yuletime celebration] in less than 2 weeks, my driving test, moving into our new house right after, then Christmas...December will be the best time to forget about everything. :)
- Sarah / Korrok
Hope it will help you a little, feel free to poke me if you want to know anything.
Thank you for your supportive comment! *hug*
Here at the swimmingpool they have special hours in a diff bath, the water is warmer and you get excersizes in it, it looks abit lame but it does help!
Actually knowing what's going on is better than second-guessing yourself, and having a name to put to the pain you feel somehow makes it feel smaller over time, especially if it is being treated. Just by browsing the wiki page for it, there seems to be some similarities between hypermobility syndrobe and spondylitis, so if you ever need to vent or get some tips about making it feel better poke me on MSN, and stay strong. x
you know I'm always happy to help if needed