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Im going to be starting to delve back into some older storylines I have and fleshing them out, (yes this also includes THAT 18th century furry project that starts with a D, shut up im working on it) But also other things I want to tell.
I want to make animatics on a semi regular basis, those, along with finding hidden secrets in photoshop, tend to be what really make my juices flow. I love telling stories, I always have. and While Devia may have had to lay on the backburner for awhile I need to at least finish the three original issues (only one more to go really then its off to the publisher) I waffled between killing off certain individuals, hell, there were a handfull that i honestly NEVER HAVE TO INTRODUCE, and the story would be fine. But it didn't feel right, It didn't feel right to let my emotions dictate what was and will be a beautiful story even if the people involved are gone from my life now. I miss them, all of them, and while i could say "screw it" and stop the project in its tracks, I think it would be better for me to come to terms with what i've lost by continueing and ending the story exactly how i planned it. It will be hard because I still care about everyone who was involved.
I'm not a monster, im not some psychotic person who just decided one day to show her true colors because I was hurt and broken. I acted that way BECAUSE i was hurt and broken, and I would really hope that even if me and my friends never speak again they at least know I never wanted to be that person, i never wanted to say the awful things i said and hurt the people i cared about, but i did and i can't take that back.
But theres more than just Devia. There's more so so so much more. and maybe one day amends can be made, hatchets buried, and forgiveness metted out. Im not holding my breath, i fucked up pretty damn hard on that front and theres little blame to be laid elsewhere.
I want to tell the story of my pony Airbrush. I want to use the animatic format to bring to life characters like hector and Bane, who while alive in my head and in Bane's case more than I ever planned, These characters deserve a voice.
I'll also be bringing back the paid-comic "Tortured" which was sagitar's backstory. I think its an important story to tell and doesn't have nearly the same emotional attachment the main storyline did. The reason i had a hard time continuing it was because someone thought I was trying to intentionally trivialze trauma and rape by having it happen to someone who was veritably sociopathic.
I'm... sorry?
I really don't understand people, and I'm starting either to not bother, or not care.
in the case of Airbrush i realized from the getgo her story was very DARK for a my little pony OC storyline, she goes through relationships that leave her reeling but in the end she prevails as a stronger person. I'm very good with "dark" not grimdark mind you but things that deal with abuse, psychosis, and exploring the ins and outs of HOW people behave because of psychology have always been interesting for me to highlight.
Its funny even now im hesitating hitting the "create" button. THAT being said PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stop asking me when Devia will restart, its my own time and my own way and it will start again when i am ready. Exactly how i planned for it to go.
I don't want hugs or sympathy or "you can do it Fox." I love you all and I appreciate it.
I just have more than one story to tell.
and im STRONGER.
I want to make animatics on a semi regular basis, those, along with finding hidden secrets in photoshop, tend to be what really make my juices flow. I love telling stories, I always have. and While Devia may have had to lay on the backburner for awhile I need to at least finish the three original issues (only one more to go really then its off to the publisher) I waffled between killing off certain individuals, hell, there were a handfull that i honestly NEVER HAVE TO INTRODUCE, and the story would be fine. But it didn't feel right, It didn't feel right to let my emotions dictate what was and will be a beautiful story even if the people involved are gone from my life now. I miss them, all of them, and while i could say "screw it" and stop the project in its tracks, I think it would be better for me to come to terms with what i've lost by continueing and ending the story exactly how i planned it. It will be hard because I still care about everyone who was involved.
I'm not a monster, im not some psychotic person who just decided one day to show her true colors because I was hurt and broken. I acted that way BECAUSE i was hurt and broken, and I would really hope that even if me and my friends never speak again they at least know I never wanted to be that person, i never wanted to say the awful things i said and hurt the people i cared about, but i did and i can't take that back.
But theres more than just Devia. There's more so so so much more. and maybe one day amends can be made, hatchets buried, and forgiveness metted out. Im not holding my breath, i fucked up pretty damn hard on that front and theres little blame to be laid elsewhere.
I want to tell the story of my pony Airbrush. I want to use the animatic format to bring to life characters like hector and Bane, who while alive in my head and in Bane's case more than I ever planned, These characters deserve a voice.
I'll also be bringing back the paid-comic "Tortured" which was sagitar's backstory. I think its an important story to tell and doesn't have nearly the same emotional attachment the main storyline did. The reason i had a hard time continuing it was because someone thought I was trying to intentionally trivialze trauma and rape by having it happen to someone who was veritably sociopathic.
I'm... sorry?
I really don't understand people, and I'm starting either to not bother, or not care.
in the case of Airbrush i realized from the getgo her story was very DARK for a my little pony OC storyline, she goes through relationships that leave her reeling but in the end she prevails as a stronger person. I'm very good with "dark" not grimdark mind you but things that deal with abuse, psychosis, and exploring the ins and outs of HOW people behave because of psychology have always been interesting for me to highlight.
Its funny even now im hesitating hitting the "create" button. THAT being said PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stop asking me when Devia will restart, its my own time and my own way and it will start again when i am ready. Exactly how i planned for it to go.
I don't want hugs or sympathy or "you can do it Fox." I love you all and I appreciate it.
I just have more than one story to tell.
and im STRONGER.
well if its from a tough guy like you i SUPPOSE i could take them, they're like rare diamonds from fluffs like you :p
...wait what was I talking about?
you have more than one story I want to hear.
Interesting.
Exactly the right attitude. There are too many stuck up, easily offended types who inhabit the nets, and would like to control it to whatever warped notions they have of the way things "oughta' be."
If it's sending you into the darker aspects of the psyche, there is likely a reason for it.
*gives you hugs and a lantern to light your way* ^.^
TM
Good luck with the projects, looking forward to seeing what you have in mind.
*soup Nazi voice* "No hugs for you! "
Whatever your wounds may be, I pray that they may be healed one day. So that you will find relief and joy, and be a better person for it.
In all things, may God's blessings be upon you, and all that you create.