I've been absolutely insane with depression for the past... year, In general feeling like a failure at life, and having a sour outlook on everything. The worst of this episode started with some confidence-crushing failures of mine that ended in a falling out with a good friend, and my spirits didn't improve even after we patched things up. I heard it said that people don't understand what depression is like unless they've been there. If it could be compared to anything I would compare it to addiction, and really that's a very good comparison. For a long time there's been nothing compelling me to depression except a strong bedrock of habits and being accustomed to feeling that way. It's not too far off base to say it's all in my head, that it's more something I'm doing than something that's happeing to me, and that the cure would be to stop doing it. Of course telling myself I'm just being silly and stupid doesn't help things so much.. Every day I think now is the time I'm going to start turning things around, and every day I find myself reinforcing the same self destructive pattern.
I'm sorry for my absence and I'm deeply sorry to those who have been waiting on commissions.

Well, tomorrow is another day...