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Lost my voice this morning
13 years ago
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since last night sure was eventful... I think I've noticed a cycle where my step dad
builds up anger for 3-4 months, that he eventually takes out on us. I should have
noticed the signs yesterday, since I overheard him mumbling about
"having the urge to beat the shit out of someone". I guess I made the mistake of
helping his mother move last night.
but yea, he freaked out around 3 am last night. I grabbed my um... anime paddle
(I don't want to explain what that is lol, but it's basically as useful as a baseball bat)
and kept it with me all night. what scares me is that I kind of wanted to use it...
I wanted him to attack one of us so that I'd have an excuse to just... hit him across the
face with it. I know I'm a pacifist, but I'm starting to believe that there are some
people in this world who truly deserve to have the shit kicked out of them.
I should have grabbed the paddle last time he freaked out... maybe that would have
prevented all the cuts on my neck.
so yea, I can barely talk today lol. so much screaming last night
I probably shouldn't have made a journal. I just need to vent...
builds up anger for 3-4 months, that he eventually takes out on us. I should have
noticed the signs yesterday, since I overheard him mumbling about
"having the urge to beat the shit out of someone". I guess I made the mistake of
helping his mother move last night.
but yea, he freaked out around 3 am last night. I grabbed my um... anime paddle
(I don't want to explain what that is lol, but it's basically as useful as a baseball bat)
and kept it with me all night. what scares me is that I kind of wanted to use it...
I wanted him to attack one of us so that I'd have an excuse to just... hit him across the
face with it. I know I'm a pacifist, but I'm starting to believe that there are some
people in this world who truly deserve to have the shit kicked out of them.
I should have grabbed the paddle last time he freaked out... maybe that would have
prevented all the cuts on my neck.
so yea, I can barely talk today lol. so much screaming last night
I probably shouldn't have made a journal. I just need to vent...
"I should have grabbed the paddle last time he freaked out... maybe that would have
prevented all the cuts on my neck."
wait wat?.......!?
Either file assault charges if he hits you, or get the fuck out.
Seriously.
and I would get out if I had money and stuff lol
How does your mother feel about his abusiveness anyway? And what about your life? Plus don't you have siblings?
Stop doing nothing about it, it's frustrating to read and more frustrating to predict what could happen in the future .-.
and yes, I have a brother and sister. what about them?
what is there to be done about this, that doesn't end in my mother suffering from it?
As for your brother and sister: why/how do they put up with it? how old are they?
and yes, my mother suffers from it, but I'm trying to explain to you that this is the best it's going to get. he has a little money... she needs money.
I make sure he doesn't hit her. that's the most I can do. I mean what exactly can I do?