First off, I've been seeing all the summer movies. So far Iron Man is my favorite. followed by Kung Fu Panda. (I'm going to see Happening tonight and Incredible Hulk tomorrow.) The movie I'm most excited about though is Dark Knight. It just looks so perfect and awesome to me. I really hope it's even half as good as it looks. (Oh and for any furry who hasn't seen Kung Fu Panda you should see it. It's an awesome but ridiculous bad kung fu movie with sexy furs.)

Next up, I haven't been drawing much even though I really want to. the biggest reason is work. I work a lot. 44-50 hours a week, and even on my days off I get like 4 or 5 calls from work. (Being a manager blows) So that kills a lot of my free time. In addition to work, I just played through Metal Gear Solid 4 (Which is by far a perfect 10 game one that everyone should play. It really raises the bar for the video game genre as far as storytelling, and it will not be beaten for a very very long time) have been seeing a lot of movies, and have been trying to spend as much time with my boyfriend as I can before he moves...

And speaking of boyfriends, I've been dealing with a couple of weird stress situations. You see, me and my boyfriend Furkitfox have an open relationship. It isn't really something I wanted, but I agreed to it in order to date him. We've been living together for almost 3 years now, and have been dating most of that time (With two break ups during that time) During that time I've come to decide that I love him, and I really want to spend the rest of my life with him. He's everything I was looking for in a partner.

The thing is though that he's moving soon. (Prolly in August) It really sucks, and it will be the first time we've had to be apart during our relationship. (I'm needy and a long distance relationship will be hard) We are staying together which I'm thankful for, and we'll only be apart for around a year, but it has me nervous. You see, he has taken advantage of the open relationship a couple of times, and slept with a few people other then me. (Mostly some furry friends of ours) He hasn't done it that often though because he has me so he doesn't need to. The few times he has done stuff it's bothered me a little, but I've done my best to be okay with it, and honestly it hasn't bugged me that much.

The problem is that I'm afraid that once he moves he's going to find people to sleep with on a regular basis and he may wind up falling for one of them and leaving me. *Sighs* At the same time I don't want to make a big deal or try and push the issue too much, because I know he isn't going to cave.

I also feel like he'll still be having a lot of sex but I'll be alone and won't have anyone to cuddle/spend time with me. I don't know why, but I think it might make me more comfortable if I were sleeping with someone else when he starts doing it. I just really don't know anyone I could do stuff like that with. Really, there are only 3 or 4 people I'd consider doing stuff with and one is leaving AZ very soon, the other ones have boyfriends (And all but one are in the city he's moving to, not where I'm at) and I don't want to really try anything, because although me and Stephen have an open relationship, most people don't....

So I'm stuck freaking out about this, and don't really know what to do... I know it's kind of a stupid issue, and honestly Stephen knows I'd like to go to a fully closed relationship, he just doesn't seem ready for that. It does look like when we get a house in Seattle, he would be willing to consider closing the relationship and being committed to me. I just hope we make it through this next year. It's going to be weird and sucky. Plus, I'm going to miss him a lot....