Well, I always tend to have one heck of an imagination.

*Blinks and hugs*

*Hugs* Thanks. I don't really expect anyone who reads this to understand who I'm talking about or what I mean. I don't know why I posted it, really, except that I'm too much of a coward to say it to who I'm really thinking of.

...Oh oh god this isn't towrds me is it?

Now how do I answer this without seeming like a bitch?

No, it isn't directed at you. That isn't to say that I don't want to be friends with you, or that I'm not interested in getting to know you better, but the person I have in mind is someone else. All I'm willing to say publicly is she's someone I've bought art from in the past.

"you"

Wait, what? I think you've completely misunderstood what I was saying. I was interested in being your friend. I liked you and and I enjoyed talking to you, even though I didn't have a lot of time to do it. What I posted this evening was a wish to make friends with an artist whom I admire, who I don't have the courage to approach with the idea because I don't know how to do so without seeming stalkerish. When I said this message wasn't directed at you, I didn't mean to imply that I didn't like you or that I was just leading you on. It was because you and I have been talking and getting to know each other, and so a post like this wouldn't be necessary because of that. Maybe I worded things poorly, as I'm good at that, but just because this is directed at someone else that doesn't mean I didn't want to be friends with you.

Oh hell I'm soooo sorry I'm such a damn idiot I don't know what to say I feel really I just I hope you can forgive me god I can't believe I just said all that! >.<

I'm sorry, too. I am complete shit when it comes to making myself clear sometimes, and I probably did make a total mess of things the first time around. So it's entirely my fault. I do like you, though, and I still do want to be friends if you're interested, and I do apologize for the misunderstanding!

Hugs tightly Of course I do I should have read it clearly rather then jump to conlusions I thought this was about be cause I've been bugging you and and your busy thats why asked you when would it be a good time to talk to you I thougth you were fed up with me. I'm sorry for that and I do accept your apology even though I feel it was my fault.

Well, I should do better at making myself understood, too. And not post things when I'm running on three hours sleep and a couple of glasses of wine, too. That doesn't really help me at all. But you're fine. You're not annoying me in the least, and I just feel bad I haven't been able to talk to you as much as I'd like. But I'm hoping to fix that fairly soon!

Well maybe this weekend?

*ears fold back and blush* No real idea on what to say towards this other than thank you?

That's how I feel about alot of the artists I watch, is one of the reason I watched you hun

Aw, you're sweet. I consider you a very good friend of mine, too!

All of my feels. God I can't help but relate to this.

I can relate so much to this.... I wish for that kind of happiness to make some good friends I can admire. However in the past I've never really known what it's like to have a true friend since some people end up forgetting about me or don't want anything to do with me like if I'm a bother to them. :c

hmmm ok hon !! ^v^

*bunnyhugs*

And in the naked light I saw ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking. People hearing without listening.
People writing songs that voices never share.
And no one dared disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools", said I, "You do not know silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you.
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qn0QBXMYXsM

There's a lot to be learned from old songs. That one in particular tried to teach me a very valuable lesson, but I can't say I ever was able to really grab hold of it. The fear of expression is something I don't think I'll ever get over, and it's stopped me from speaking my feelings to quite a lot of people. You in particular!
That feeling where you want to be friends with someone so much that you're scared to try in case it blows all your chances at friendship altogether, but you admire them so much and see them as a person enough to know that you want to be there to pick them up if they fall, dust them off and put them back on their feet with a hug.

I do hope you'll forgive me for sounding creepy and stalkerish myself, but mayhaps it'll be of some encouragement to you to speak up your mind to whoever it is you admire. Forgive me while I make a complete and utter fool of myself, but I do admire you a lot. You're wonderfully sweet, even to those that misunderstand you. Your openness and sensibility about your gender is something I really look up to, and is something I wish I could be more forthright with. You have a sense of indulgence that I tend to giggle at with your commissions, even though I'm a bit silly when it comes to that kind of content, and you always post them with a dignity and etiquette that I think is rare with those types of commissions, or at least from what little I've seen! It sends a "this is what I like, so what?" sort of feel, but in a very dignified way, and I admire that, too.

And all of this without mentioning the imagination you put into your stories. I always feel like they're real, and want to bug you with questions about the people or places in them, but I know I'd feel so silly for doing just that.

All of that just to say, I want to be the kind of friend that can lift your head when you get sad. Now that I look like a complete crazy-person, I'm just hoping that I haven't scared you too much! All I mean to do is let the awkwardness of being open and honest encourage you a little.

No regrets!

Same here, really. Even when I know it's silly there's still that fear of speaking up that I just can't seem to shake no matter what. I've gotten a lot better than I used to be, at least, but not to where I'd like to be.

And you don't sound bad at all. I'm very flattered by all the things you've said, and I've always admired you quite a bit, too. Every time we talk I'm struck by how everything you write is not only intelligent and well thought out, but filled with a very real sense of compassion and warmth that I only wish I could match. You're certainly more eloquent than I am, as I always kind of flounder around for words a bit. You always manage to make me feel better, too. You're also a very talented and imaginative artist, and I always enjoy the little glimpses of your world that we get through your art. You're one of the kindest and most generous individuals I've ever met, not just in the fandom either, and I've always admired you for that.

Thank you for everything you've said, and for taking the time to comment. You haven't scared me at all, just maybe made me blush a little. But only because you're too sweet to me.

You don't need to flatter up to me like that.
You are always welcome to worship me with as much zeal, as you can!

*Snugs* I don't really expect anyone to say anything, though it's sweet of you to be concerned. It was just something I wanted to get out, y'know?

Whoo, one of the rare situations where my "Are they talking about me?" paranoia has a positive outcome :D I hope whoever this is aimed at sees it~ I also think that most creative types won't find that sort of a message creepy, even if they won't really know how to respond to that much praise ;P

Eep. Yeah, I was kind of afraid this one would make people a bit paranoid. I keep thinking of taking it down because of that, and just don't because so many people have been so kind. But thank you. I kind of doubt she'll see it, or if she does that she'll guess that it's directed at her. But who knows? Maybe she will.

I know this feeling. But after taking time to actually chat with a few of the artists at MFF, it's not so difficult anymore. It's just that initial opening step that's the hard part.

You've shown bravery over the few years I've been watching you here. Here's to hoping you can find the right moment to actually leap over this hurdle.