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'Tis the season or something like that.
13 years ago
Sometimes it's really cool to have my birthday so close to Christmas. I've gotten some really neat gifts from people that way... And other times it sucks, because lazy people use it as an excuse to get you inexpensive, useless things and call them a combination of a Birthday and Christmas gift. I got one such gift this year from my significant other...
She dumped me for my birthday, so I can be alone and miserable on Christmas...
Furthermore, this is the first Christmas I've had to face without my grandmother. In case no one knows how significant that is, Christmas was her big holiday. Christmas was always celebrated at her house. Several different branches of the family converged at her house. Cousins, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews... All of us. And this is the first year she won't be here.
I'm not whining or anything... I just needed some place to let all of my vast, empty sadness out... And no one reads my journals here, so it won't be a bother if I put it here, because I know a lot of people hate self pitying crap like this...
She dumped me for my birthday, so I can be alone and miserable on Christmas...
Furthermore, this is the first Christmas I've had to face without my grandmother. In case no one knows how significant that is, Christmas was her big holiday. Christmas was always celebrated at her house. Several different branches of the family converged at her house. Cousins, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews... All of us. And this is the first year she won't be here.
I'm not whining or anything... I just needed some place to let all of my vast, empty sadness out... And no one reads my journals here, so it won't be a bother if I put it here, because I know a lot of people hate self pitying crap like this...
I can relate. We used to have Christmas evening with my mother's side of the family. When my grandfather died, my only remaining grandparent disowned my mother and the rest of us completely. As far as that entire side of the family is concerned, we are scum under their shoes ... most of all the relatives on that side of the family refuse to talk to us due to whatever lies my grandmother has told them in regards to us.
I understand as I still miss having those Christmases after 8 years ... I completely understand.