I cannot abide them, at it hurts more when it hits so close to home.

I was okay when it was lost feelings.
I was okay when you didn't want to fix what had been broken
I understood that things wouldn't work out
I realized that the distance was tough
I knew when you became distant
and started hanging out with her more and more that something was bound to happen
you didn't hide it well at all.
I had heard the rumors and chose to ignore them because I trusted you.

But hell be damned that you lied to me and told me their was no one else
That we may get back together
and that you wanted to be alone for awhile.
That this stuff "just happens"....

I don't spite the person your with
Hell I don't spite the fact that you are happy
I can move on too
and i know there are guys that have shown interest in me.


What I cannot abide is that I was lied to, because that hurts more than any break up every could.

I want to be friends, but how can I trust a friend that lies to me about something as major than this.
I have learned one thing from this whole thing was that I cannot trust so completely. I gave faith because in past relationships I had been to worrisome and clingy...now i was too trustworthy and it blew up on me anyways.


If you feel even a 10th of the guilt to the hurt and betrayal I feel from this...than you may still have some kind of compassion left. It was good to know you loved me at least for a little while..I guess...I want to be friends...but right now I just need time.