Some of you guys may have noticed I haven't been going to the recent PS meet ups, well this has mostly to do with the simple lack of funds and a truly reliable car there is another reason.... But first lets take a trip into my past a bit yes?

Now we're not going to far back just enough to shead some light on me a tad bit sooo High school it is!!

Those who know me well know I'm not what could typically be classified as "sane" due to this I was sent to "special" schools where your greeted by a metal detector and a pat down much like going to the airport now n days, now before I go on I would like to point out that the Zer0 your about to hear about has been gone for a good few years now so don't let this shy you away from talking to me or anything a ton has changed since then but I digress. Well after the chat your led into the "school" now I've always thought the way tv makes "normal" high schools look was bullshit there's always that group of bully's and snobby chick bully's roamin around which I found to be unrelatable. See in my school things weren't that complacated see the only two groups in my school were those who fought and those who didn't.... I was pushed around by a bigger dude for about the first two weeks before I put him in a head lock then kneed and punched him before I fell back and landed him on his head!

now before I go on I would like to point out I do not clame to know fighting styles I'm not sure I could roundhouse kick or put someone in a fancy submission to be frank I was a street fighter HADOOOKEN *ahem* sorry but yea I'd like to point out I don't clame to know styles but I do know how to fight.. I had to else I prolly wouldent be writing this XD

Well I soon got the reputation as "that guy you don't fuck with" see the biggest problem with the way I fight is also my gratest strength you see I just don't give a fuck! I wouldent stop til either my target stopped moving or I was pulled off by a STAT call.

On yet another side note for those who don't know a "STAT" Call was when all avalable staff were called to forcibly restrain a violent student ya know the whole tackle to the ground and hold them till they were calm or tired enough to lock in a small padded room of which they had 4 ready at any givin time.

But yea see this was a problem mainly because most of the time the fights I was in were due to someone being bullied, I can not stand anyform of bullying and new students learns this quickly older ones knew better, I saw this kid slap a friend of mine he was a punk and she was... Well she was a woman... I grabbed him by the neck and slammed his head into the ground and proceeded to smash his face in lucky for the both of us staff were already on scene and were able to pull me off, it took my under a minute to break his nose and knock two teeth out haha they pulled me off and I yelled "I ever see you touch a woman like that again ill fucking kill you" now I'll kill you became known as my last warning see I never cared for all the shit talking and drama to me it always came down to this we're gonna fight or were not but skip the bullshit and often times when people did want to "take me down a. Peg" I would look at them and calmly say "ill kill you" to which I would try until staff could pull me off! Eventually I Disney have to open my mouth anymore people would talk about fighting me and often times someone, usually a long time student, would chime in a say something like "I wouldn't do that Zer0 will kill you" no matter the size shape or build I would fight till one of us would stop moving.. All that being said I got my ass kicked a lot too I was beaten to the point of KO many more times then I'd like to admit because I never back down another strength/ flaw.

By now your prolly wondering "what does this have to do with PS" well many cases of bullying have been brought to my attention and even threats of violence have been made agenst my friends, I won't say any names as to show respect to both party's but yea this pissed me off to the point were I'm not entirely sure wether or not I could hold back at the sight of the threatener. I'm not sure how often ill be attending ps anymore because I have no doubt if I see this person threaten or bully anyone else or my friend again I will go to jail wich is something I'm pretty proud I've avoided so far, I still have friends I only get to see at ps though so I suppose I need to get myself under check before I feel comfy going back, to dislike someone is one thing but to make a threat to say "ill beat your ass" no no that's idle talk which only pisses me off further and it's completely uncalled for, I mean at the end of the day if you got time for drama you need some hobbies XD,

This past year has been hard for me and with the passing of my grandmother one of the most important people in my life and the wake of drama and sorrow that was a result of it.. I find I'm questioning my self worth I feel as though I'm doing nothing and going no where I'm trying to apply for jobs I prolly can't keep because of my bad feet but I can't live on disablity I can survive on it and that's not living my friends often offer to pay for me to go places and do things with them and we'll I'm very grateful I have such good friends it leaves a bad taste in my mouth and a wounded pride is a result of this.... I need to focas on me for a little bit and figure out how I can make more money without being on my feet constantly because I'm simply not capable to stand for more then a hour at a time but anyway, thanks for reading all this kinda went off on a tangent there XD