I hope that people understand

but I still respect you

Don't be hard on yourself. I'm sure your commissioners will understand. I still support you as an artist.

Nobody thinks you're bad. :< Maybe you just need to cut back on the amount of work you take on.

It ok. I don't agree with the bad artist part, but I understand the feel.

Hrm, the more I think about the more I wonder. It has good line works. Good composition. Interesting visuals. You have incredible output rate... I don't even into the fetish, so there is appeal to general audience.

First of all if you were bad, you wouldn't be in my watch list. secondly, if you think you're bad take a look at my gallery ! and I'm still taking commissions... though Ive been like you many many times.
Hope you feel better.

No, no you are not. You made a mistake, we all make mistakes, thats human. Even the most professional artists take on more then they can chew sometimes so dont worry about it. also the art you draw is totally fine, its not cheap and even if its fetish art, dude, a lot of artists live from that because thats where the money is. Doesnt mean its the only thing you can do or should do, just means thats the thing that makes money. So finish the comissions you started, take a break afterwards and then only take on the amount of art you think you can finish.

Well you haven't taken their money yet cause you haven't finished then your not a bad person. At least that's how I think.

Ok, first off...as a silent watcher, i'm not saying this because i just want to appeal to someones ego or make them feel better about it.
I'm writing this out of pure honesty, so let me say this once:

Why do you say THAT? --> "I realized that I'm a really bad artist."
If you'd really be a bad artist, people wouldn't even bother "standing in line" for commissions, so stop saying that. ^_^
Second of all, in the middle of all these yiff and hentai breathed on imagery, it's nice to see someone do tempting stuff like the recent comics, yet manages to not cross the borderline to being ridiculous.
Take your time with the commissions at hand...the other will hopefully understand.
As i'd always like to say "Good things take time" or "Patience is a virtue"

I proclaim myself as professional artist. Professional artist have to be able to work on order even he/she dont like the subject or have the will to work on that particular subject.
I fail to achieved this. I'm slumped and give up.

Everyone falters. We are human after all. It's good to keep your policies in line, but it's even better to be able to bounce back from your mistakes and move on without the past affecting you as such.

You can do this, you should continue to draw in your free time. You can give up commissions to take a breather and figure some things out, but don't quit on yourself for the time being, you are more valuable than you make yourself out to be.

Peple go though phases. Some days when you wake up you are not the same pwrson who got into that bed the night previous.

Like nature, like the weather, like the phases of the moon; people are different day in and day out.

Right now you‘re not the person you want to be; don‘t force it. Accept that you have limits. That is one of the fundamental things that proves that we are alive is that we have limits.

Take a step back... breathe... then really think this over: why are you so shaken by this?

Find the root of the problem then work to resolve it. Deep down you know what‘s really bothering you. All you need to do to find out is just think it through.

*hugs* Hey, Hey, Hey.,Don't say things like that. <=0 You ARE an amazing artist., you muscle art is equaled by only a few in quality here on FA. Plus: Just cause you can not deliver arts for your commissions quickly, doesn't mean you are a bad person. <=3

Your feeling of guilt and concern towards your commissioners already shows that you are a good person. <=3 *smiles* You just need more time and I'm sure your commissioners would not mind giving you more time and all, cause your arts are worth the money. ^^

plz cheer up bud although you not chose my commission datial at last
but you are still a very great Awesome artist in my mind :] *big hugs *

It seems to me like you feel as if you're being defined for the work you put on here, which is predominantly muscle fetish stuff.

But no, that's not how I would define you. I know you do the muscle stuff for fun, but I also know you do plenty of other types of work that you should be proud of. You have an aesthetic and work flow that works well for you and has proven success. You have established a niche for yourself in the community.

You have still have an artistic voice, and you can change when you want. Don't feel as if this is the only thing you will do if you don't want to. Feel free to do what you want and see where it takes you.

Best of luck with your recovery of your slump. I hope we can pull through together.

I'm glad that there are still people who appreciate my art other than fetishes :)
I mean, I'm not against fetishes because I'm a pervy person too
Thanks again for your heart warming comment :)

Oh of course! I'm not against them either by any stretch of the imagination, since we all enjoy something pretty weird, but I'm glad that underneath those drawings you show fluid line work, solid structure and usage of light with the planes. You know how to sculpt your figures out.

Because of this, when you buckle down and do something more on a personal level, you are very successful at it. Keep going, regardless! If you're ever down I'll try to be around.

You are a fantastic artist, and I know that feeling. If the title professional artist is stressful, then why not just be a hobby artist until you can pick your spirits up? There's nothing wrong with being a hobby artist, and with that you can be more forgiving of yourself.

Hun, every artist makes mistakes and sometimes can't/doesn't deliver what was promised. It's hard to picture exactly what a commissioner wants, and they just gotta live with the fact that sometimes their visions won't come out just as they imagine when done by another person. Unless you're telepathic, you can't read minds, and that's okay. Nobody's perfect, and trying to set the bar higher than you can reach will just push you further into a rut. Trust me on that v.v

Hope your spirits are lifted soon <3

I wish I can do more casual stuff and drawing things that I want to draw more often. But I need to keep my work procedure as professional because I draw for a living.
You're right that I can't read people's mind but it's my job to make them satisfy as much as possible. I'm happy if client is happy.
Thank you very much for your kind comment :)

Do three things on your next day off:
- Get a good night's rest, sleeping in if possible.
- Consume some chocolate
- Be genuinely lazy, doing anything but drawing; don't even think about it if you can help it.

Those always help me personally whenever I get in that kind of mood.

Try something outrageously new.

You... and a bad artist? Ahaha! Come on, you're one of the best muscle artists I've found on FA, your art is excellent. c:

It's a shame that you can't bring yourself to work on some projects, but motivation can be really hard to get, and it has nothing to do with you being good or bad. ^^ Especially since the people didn't pay yet, they have nothing to complain about-- a bit of wait shouldn't be anything to get upset about. And if you can't do it at all... well, just think over the commission carefully before accepting it, I suppose. But then again, there's nothing to blame you for, since no one paid anything in the first place yet anyway.

Hang in there, Pokkuti! Take a break from all this for a bit, but don't give up~! It'd be a terrible shame.

It's very difficult for me to turn down the offers. Especially from long time fan.
I'm really paranoid that when I turn down the offers, I have a feeling that they'll hate me.

Seriously Pokkuti, stop it. Stop it right now. I've seen this happen and been through this with too many artists to let this happen to you, too.

You over extended yourself and bit off more than you can chew. Guess what? So has everyone at one point or another in their lives. Welcome to the club.

Can you honestly say that you're a terrible person for drawing what you do? Can you take a step back and objectively say that you're a monster for your work? I highly doubt it with the huge gallery of work you have up already; it's just your passion. It seems much more likely that maybe the stress of the work on top of whatever's going on in your personal life is more to blame.

You need to take a step back. A couple of days, maybe a week or so. Personally apologize to those who are waiting on commissions; most will understand that stuff happens. If they don't, too bad; you're the artist. Handle what you need to, get it done. Then, get your butt back to work.

And for all that is holy, don't fall into the trap of spending all your time apologizing. Say it to your commissioners and be done with it. We all know you're sorry, and anybody with half a brain will understand. Too many people get so focused on making everyone understands they're REALLY sorry, that they're too focused on apologizing when they could be working. Say it and be done.

You said your sorry, we understand. Get some rest, take care of yourself. Then get back to work.

Thank you for the advice :)
It's so painful to let people down. This feeling struck me very hard.
I will learn from this mistake.

No problem; just glad I can help.

People already mentioned it better than me, so I'm not gonna repeat all of this with tons.

A bad artist is someone who never apologizes for his mistakes, lateness, art block. A good artist is someone who does.

You're far from being a bad artist, both in art and mentality.

Hello Pokkuti. As a fellow female muscle artist I have great respect for your work.

I am also in the same boat as yourself since i offered $15.00 for my commissions two months ago and my workload has increased dramatically because people couldn't refuse the offer for the quality of my work.

It was stressful at first but the only thing that keeps me going is my purpose of purchasing a new graphics tablet and other components for my desktop PC (I am a bit of a fanatic when it comes to computers). Having that sense of purpose boosted my morale and makes me more determined than ever to reach my goal of building a high powered gaming/graphics PC and it works too. My father always tells me that in order to reach you goal, you have to work hard to earn it and I'm sure you were told the same thing as well.

I do not know what goes on in your personal life but there must be a purpose behind making your artwork for money. Find your purpose and you will have the willpower to carry on doing what you do best.

Take care man.

mews, been there, done that. I've done that to my self so many times that i've been able to realize when I'm getting hung up on a commission and it's depressing me. If it's a particular commission, personally I get panicked when I'm having trouble drawing something EXACTLY how the customer wants and either you need to suck it up and compromise with something else less stressful, or pick at it like maybe an hour a day then work on something else to break it up.

If it's that your getting tired of the stuff your usually drawing, (if you haven't already) try making a new account and drawing stuff for yourself and not worry about what other people think. Just focus on expressing yourself as an artist. The fact that your art here may be mainly fetish based does not mean that that's all you can do, or that your art is only worth that. It just means that's what you've been focusing on at this particular time. You can draw very well, and you do have great skill so all you need to do is channel it differently if you feel what your doing now isn't how you want to project yourself to the world. As for your current commissions, you can pick at them in between slowly but surly. even an hour-15minutes a day will get one done some time rather then at all.

hope what i had to say helps because i know so well how depressing it is to look at your own work and be disappointed in it. But just know that you can shape your talent how ever you want no matter what you've done in the past.

sounds like you have the winter Blahs.

You're a great artist, but yes indeed it is wrong to make people wait.

Pokkuti, I'm surprised to see you saying this. Your not a bad artist. Your one of many artists art style I love.

Ok. Hold on. You're not a bad artist by any stretch of the imagination. So dont be so hard on yourself. You're the only person who seems to think your bad. And yes this is a fetish site where "art" is stretched to the extremes so people can see big penises and girls with dicks but who cares! Its an easy thing to change your commission schedule or stop taking them all together like I do frequently.

It sounds like there is something more going on here that you actually believing you're a bad artist and a bad person. Dont take things out on yourself like that.

Also if you're overloaded by the amount of work you have....charge more! Supply and demand bitches!

For what it's worth, I love your art. The title "professional artist" is as nebulous a term as that of "art" itself. If you're putting out work of consistently high quality to the point where people want to give you money for it, I'd consider yourself a "professional". There's more to being a respectable artist these days than having your work in a gallery or published in a magazine. And if you've taken on more than you can handle, consider it a lesson learned. I have a hard enough time getting into a creative mood when I'm just working for myself, and I can't imagine the pressure that would come from having paying clients. If you need to scale back your queue, then so be it.

Regarding the subject matter, if muscle art is what you want to draw, then do it. Denying yourself and your passions only leads to misery, believe me. Don't get hung up on what other people say or would say about it. There's a lot of human weirdness out there, sexual and otherwise, and society as a whole will be better off when it just learns to accept that it exists.

I know the feeling. It's pretty awful drawing something and then realizing "I would not want to show my family this." I've started doing more non-furry stuff, and I've found it to be more fulfilling.

If you were a bad person you'd have taken people's money and then told them 'too bad so sad' when they asked about where there commission was but you haven't so you can cancel that remark right now...

If you were a terrible artist you wouldn't have a huge list of people watching you and demanding your services...last time I checked just because you get a giant list of people wanting you to do commission work doesn't mean you have to do it. Another artist told me a commission list is like an interview list for a business with a Human Resources department, they must conduct a pre interview, an interview, and a post interview. In other words you have to interview people who want your services and decide whether you want to, can, or able to fulfill there commission. It is ok to say 'at this time, I am unable to fulfill that request. please try again within (and give a reasonable time frame). Thank you for your understanding.'

Also take a good break for yourself when ever possible, and do something non-art related that inspires you, or makes you happy, or calms your mind and bolsters your spirit. This helps keep you from feeling overwhelmed, and allows you to be more proactive in your health and well being.

And if all else fails... you can talk to me in notes, the mama-bear is always listening. :)

Good Luck to you Pokutti-san I hope you realize that you are indeed highly regarded here on the world wide web, even if it is for fetish art. Some people have to start somewhere right? I look forward to your drawings always.

Best of Luck,
Fellania BloodClaw

Your thinking is ridiculous, man! You're a bad artist? You're being delusional!

You create some of the most gorgeously detailed characters I've ever seen! I can understand that you are overwhelmed with all the commissions you've accepted, but that's no reason to call yourself a bad artist! TAKE IT EASY!! Keep on doing what you do!

You are a great artist. I love your work. I greatly enjoyed the pic you made me and your level of detail in all your work is superb and breathtaking. Sometimes we can be our own worst critic but know that there are plenlty of people out there who love and respect you and your art *hugs*

but but D:

You're skilled, keep up the fight, and you can do it. Hope you're really feeling better.

You are a courteous and wonderful person and a great artist.

You should raise your prices because of the quality you deliver.

I hope you have a Merry Christmas!