I know that it seems like so many times I'm just whining or posting about nothing.

But, I'm just at peace. I am content, because not only do I and my mate's lives seem to be on the correct path - we've gotten a venue, I've selected my wedding dress....still haven't quite mustered the courage needed to ask my bridesmaid to be my Maid of Honor, but that's another thing all together XD I'm happy! All my girls are great and there has been something magically about sharing the experience of building this wedding with them.

But more than that....it's jsut so good that the two people I've grown the closest with, and more importantly, grown with outright, are as equally happy as I am just settles me in ways that I can't put into words. and have been like the sisters I so desperately needed in my life, helping to guide me and make sure that they provided not only the stable ground for me to take comfort in, but the shelter against the many storms that overcame me. They have made me laugh when I needed it most, provided sound advice and wisdom beyond what I could see myself, and never once gave up the faith that I would find the right way. They both also went through relationships similar to mine, were blinded to faults that others could see, and ultimately, grew smart enough to realize what love for them meant and what it needed to be.

Recently, and my dear friend got engaged, and I genuinely couldn't be happier for them (wait, that's kinda a lie, I'd have been happier to be there celebrating too! ;D ) and I am so full of joy and love for them. They complete and compliment one another and it's clear to anyone around that they are meant to be. Their love has not always been easy, and has been tested by distance and time, but proved that what's real is real no matter the troubles it faces. Seeing them and spending time in the glow of their happiness honestly made it so much easier for me to not lose faith and to see that it was out there - I just had to keep my head up. I love them both dearly, and am so very happy for them to join us in the fun chaos that is wedding planning XD

On top of that, though, my darling and her beau are celebrating their first anniversary in just a few short weeks and it's been so wonderful seeing someone so clearly deserving of Autie's love and someone who lavishes her in the same sort of happiness she readily gives to others! I haven't been fortunate enough to meet Razor personally, but everything I've seen of him is a devoted, kind hearted person - those sharp fangs and claws aside ;) I'm just so full of happiness knowing that everyone is finally on the path we should be, that it's all falling into place for us, and that without any shred of doubt or worry we are all finally happy.

It's been a long time coming! But, enough mush, I'm going back to snuggling with my silly lemur <3