Does the mind seal memories is something I wondered for while now. For some reason I wish I knew, I can’t seem to remember things I feel like I should know or at least have some recollection of them to describe. I first noticed this when I was typing my life story or what I joke as my will. Now I would know the reason behind this if was things that were traumatic to me and my mind wanted to prevented me from suffering.

But this so far deep that my mind even affects lesser memories and things I should know. I know the brain prioritizes what needs to remember from most important to less important and dumps what is not needed., but that is only when tasks and responsibilities are needed to be finished, after that you should have the sealed memories back I should think. Maybe this all in mind or maybe its all a figment of my imagination.

I want to remember all that I can and everything and not feel limited to only the most important memories and most important responsibilities, I wish to think of the other moments, but I am unable to. It seems my mind is set in way I could only think objectively and not let my mind wonder on something pointless or something that has meaning.

Its sort of depressing in that way, something I wish I could at least say what they were I can’t even do that. In a way, I feel like am losing my memories. This my mind set I deal with, a mind that wishes to erase my past, or remove the idea of me having a past. I wish I could unlock them with a special key, but this lock has no key for which can be unlocked.