today... a terrible event took place in Newtown Connecticut, at the elementary school of sandy hook grades k-4, there was a shooting. in a kindergarten class room and one near it, with a total of 20 kids killed, 6 adults killed. the shooter was heavily armed and this was not a case of mental breakdown like the theater shooting earlier in the year. this is officially the 2nd worst school shooting in this nation (U.S). while im not the most holiday ethusiastic it severely bothers me that these were 5 and 6 year olds, that those that watched their freinds died have now lost their innocence, and that those families that most likely have gifts ready had decorations up and were looking forward to a holiday with their loved ones will be in mourning over the loss of their children. i learned of this at about 1pm and i watched the news for several hours, i watched reporters crying i saw the president hold back tears and rush a speech as he wiped tears away and then left the room in a rush, i was the governor of their state stuttering and having a hard time speaking to the parents, it was heart wrenching. there is no word in any language dead or alive that could perfectly describe how disgusting that this happened no word that could describe how heart breaking it must be for the families. as an older brother and a very protective one at that i could only imagin what it be like to loose my younger sister. i caught myself choking on tears, and breaking in to them from time to time, and i felt a sickness in my being. all i can say is, that everyone we need to do what we can to support those that went through this are going through this and will go through this for the rest of their lives. for the religious i suggest mentioning them in prayers and sermons, for the non religious do whatever you think will do properly, for me its spreading the word its finding my loved ones and holding them closer. there is no stream today no special event or anything from me for this tragedy has hit me at my core. i suggest that if you have not heard about this you look in to it and then if your an older sibling or a parent or a god parent uncle aunt whatever, to find the one you love and hold them tighter to spend some time with them tonight. play games watch a movie do something and count your luck that it wasnt you count yourself lucky that you get to end this year with a beloved one and begin the next with them, that you get to celebrate your chosen holiday with them just count yourself lucky.

your truely and mourning as if this happened to me and my family
Melos Mevim and the entire cast of characters in my works