So the metaphorical interpretation of the dream is turning out to be accurate, but that's all I can say so far.

Still, I'm going with this explanation as to why we're all still here:

https://zgul-osr1113.deviantart.com.....tmas-344108780

And now, the meme I promised, ganked from  eternalundeath


1. Was 2012 a good year for you? Why?
Hell yes it was. I lost a ton of weight, figured out a huge amount of important shit, and spent more time with my affairs in order than I've spent in years!

2. What was your favorite moment of the year?
Don't know. It's not over yet.
But I have a bunch of candidates.
February: Seeing VNV nation Live.
March: Discovering Paleo, finding out that the Garden of Life RAW Meal powder comes in tasty chocolate and vanilla!
Midsummer: Kicking the Tumblr addiction and coming out of my wicked funk, discovering Skele-toez shoes as an effective treatment for back pain.
September: Finally purchasing an annual pass to the Florida State Parks. Walking In to the park from outside and hiking all the way to the beach, a two mile trek through blinding sun and ankle-deep sand.
October: Doing a workout that would take me an hour in half the time by actually running, Spending a wonderful weekend with my mate which culminated in an epic air-clearing on the beach at sunset that left us closer to eachother.
November: Breaking Dawn Pt. 2 . Realizing that Nicotine withdrawal is no longer of any greater consequence to me than caffiene withdrawal; I truly have kicked the habit. Getting back in touch with someone through synchronicity; I willed them to contact me and they did so.
December: Rediscovering a MASSIVE amount of old abilities in a new and more meaningful context, and exercising them in such a way that my fighting skill is as good as ever it was. Rediscovering two friends in the same way, recognizing that I'm at a high enough "level" to start learning all over again >=3. Having a sparring match with a friend that was previously terrified of me in which that friend actually engaged me seriously and exchanged good blows with me, that was fuckin' amazing. The Furry X-mas 2012 with the tallahassee furs. 12-21-2012, the whole day.

3. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
WHOLE MONTHS of bipolar depression: May, June, November, some of December.
Losing the use of the bathroom on my end of the house >=/
A month of dead laptop.
Critical Dehydration Episode that I thought was gonna kill me.
Realizing I had gained back 15 of the 25 pounds I'd lost during biggest loser.

4. Where were you when 2012 began?
I think I spent New Year's here at mom's house? It's so weird that i don't remember.

5. Who were you with?
I seriously don't remember o.o

6. Where will you be when 2012 ends?
Jacksonville Beach, FL

7. Who will you be with when 2012 ends?
Probably With my Sister, Brother-in-Law, Niece and Nephew, and it'd be awesome if my Dad, Stepmom, and baby sister are going to be down south for New Year's too =3

8. Did you keep your New Year's Resolutions of 2012?
Oh hell yes. This has been the best year of my life!

9. Do you have New Year's Resolution(s) for 2013?
The same one all over again, 2013: My Best Year yet, Whatever It Takes.
But some specifics are warranted-
1) Sell something every month.
2) Measurable Weight Goals: I weigh 342 pounds right now, wear 3-4x shirts, and 56" jeans. That's gotta go.
By Spring Break (April)- Weigh 300 Pounds; 50" jeans, 2xl shirts
By Birthday (end of august) Weigh 260-270; 40-44" jeans, 1xl shirts
By Next Christmas, Weigh 230-240 (goal weight); 36-38" jeans, L-1xl shirts
That's around 2.5 pounds a week. I can DO this.
3) Form better habits: Clean, Art, Meditation and Exercise on a daily basis, starting small and building on a good foundation.
4) Budget my time and the household money better.
5) Go Paleo
6) Three dedicated workouts a week.
7) Form new contacts, broaden my social horizons.
8) Figure out some way to start getting around more efficiently.
9) Measure my progress.
10) Unfuck my house.
11) Be myself, just as hard as I can.

10. Did you fall in love in 2012?
All over again.

11. If yes, with who?
My lovely lion, Ari. And others. You know who you are ;3

12. If yes, do they know?
Eeeeyup <3

13. Are you still in love with them?
Definitely.

14. You regret it?
Never.

15. Did you break up with anyone in 2012?
Almost had to cut a friend off completely.

16. Did you make any new friends in 2012?
Like one? o.o

17. Who are your favorite new friends?
That one? o.o

18. What was your favorite month of 2012?
October was fuckin' SWEET.

19. Did you travel outside of your country of residence in 2012?
Nope.

20. How many different states / provinces did you travel to in 2012?
Actually I think I didn't even leave florida but a handfull of times... like I think I went to Alabama a few times.


21. Did you lose anybody close to you in 2012?
No, No I did not.

22. Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yeah... A lot.

23. What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2012?
Avengers Was fantastic but since I only saw like.... TWO movies this year, The more fun experience was, by far, Breaking Dawn Pt. 2 which I saw as a marathon of all the movies back to back.

24. What was your favorite song from 2012?
Never Close Our Eyes, Adam Lambert.

25. What was your favorite record from 2012?
Not counting stuff I discovered this year, Tresspassing from Adam Lambert

26. How many concerts did you see in 2012?
1

27. Did you have a favorite concert in 2012?
VNV Nation, the only one I went to.

28. Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2012?
Nope

29. Did you do a lot of drugs in 2012?
Not even.

30. How many people did you sleep with in 2012?
I had naughty fun time with like a total of five people, and slept with one of them.

31. Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Quite a bit, yes.

33. What was the worst lie someone told you in 2012?
Other than people failing to keep their word with me at various points?

34. Did you treat somebody badly in 2012?
Yes, and I have been forgiven for it repeatedly.

35. Did somebody treat you badly in 2012?
Quite heinously yes.

36. How much money did you spend in 2012?
Of mine? about... I would guess under 500$ total.

37. What was your proudest moment of 2012?
Go back and look at #2

38. What was your most embarrassing moment of 2012?
See #3

39. If you could go back in time to any moment of 2012 and change something, what
would it be?
The black suns would have appeared on Dec. 21st? I dunno, I'm actually really happy with how things are working out.

40. What are your plans for 2013?
Heheheh. See #9