So, my day consisted of this:

Waking up at five in the morning, mulling about in bed for an hour and a half'

Assisting my dad in walking 10-11 dogs (we run a kennel)'

making french toast for breakfast, then opening up a dress shirt, a pair of pants I'd like to say were a size to large, but fit just right (which upsets me...) and a bunch of socks,

going between relaxed and stressed making a big christmas dinner and cleaning up my house with my parents for our extended family,

eating food, opening presents, and then more dog-walking.

Yet, I still felt incredibly lonely today. If a few of my online friends hadn't spoken to me, this would have been an extremely depressing holiday; from the bottom of my heart, I thank you gus and gals that spoke to me and made me feel like this day was worth going through...

I know I have a lot to be thankful for. I'm thankful for caring parents who only try to do the best for their youngest child; for living in a house that's done nothing but shelter me and keep me warm; for a job that for the most part is relatively easy, and pays okay for its long hours; for a world where I can have two seperate families -- the ones I'm tied to by flesh, and the ones I've forged bonds with through years of care, comeradery and love -- and talk to each seperately, though I hope they can eventually meet someday...

These last couple years have been taxing on my psyche, as I've been thrust into a world I've been sheltered from since birth. I might have depression, or I might just be so screwed up in the head that I feel like I deserve more. Regardless, I'm hoping to build on a new future for myself this year, and am thankful for the people that are actually interested enough to follow me and try to keep up with whatever it is I'm doing.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and happy holidays. May you recieve much love, enjoy each day you're given, and live your life to the greatest extent you can. I love you all. Really :3