Most people know I don't like the holidays. This year, the holidays seemed to come after me.

My grandfather went to the hospital
An extended family member died
A close and personal friend's father died
A personal friend of my own died
An old friend is now an orphan because her father shot and killed her mother
Sandy Hook
The firefighter ambush in upper New York
Spending both Thanksgiving and Christmas alone
Missing all of the holiday parties due to work
Probably spending New Years alone too
Frequent fights with friends
Lack of good work hours making the paychecks really slim, while people were also expecting gifts
Having to undo the past 2 years worth of being comfortable with who I am because I had to hide in the closet lest half my family disown me
Waiting on paperwork to progress with my EMT and driver's license, so being forced to sit and twiddle my thumbs when I need to keep chugging on
Return of my depression in extreme force

So bah humbug at me, but all of that crap happened in the time span of Thanksgiving to today. Forgive me if I seem in a crappy mood.