I'm sorry you feel that way.

wow..
I actually assumed noone would even read what I wrote here cO
this sure is a very positive surprise

so thank you very much for your comment! really

how you going to change / ?

about that art topic, possible options may contain
- stop offering art/commissions
- stop sharing artwork
however would inevitable lead to
- stop drawing and concentrate on actual job and other things

o only draw what people want to see

+ find some other source for drawing motivation than feedback (money for commissions, comments, etc)???


need to think this through..
anyway,
thank you for the comment! actually was thinking noone would even read this

I get 1000 journals a day when I luckily saw your name I was like ..... O no ...

*hugs tightly* My condolences. :(

wow, it was a pretty positive surprise as I noticed people actually read what I put up here

so thank you so much for your comment! pretty much a cheerup for me, really!

*sighs* alright, I can see myself in you. I KNOW you underestimate yourself. I KNOW IT. Stop shitting yourself, you can catch your goal if you climb steadily and don't fall off out of frustration. You can also stop shitting yourself about no one caring; I don't even know you that well and when I saw this journal, I cared because I can see myself in your position.

And tired of being you? Come on, man. Is there anyone you are BETTER at being than yourself? Rough patches just like the one you are going through is a test. If you can get through this stage of feeling mediocre and depressed, you will be a better person for it.

Try. Don't fall off of the ledge you're standing on, you'll just have to drag yourself up the mountain again. Even if you abandon your mountain, there is always another one you have to scale.

You disgust yourself? Well, you know what? I disgust myself, and if I can get through it, I'm sure as hell going to drag you along with me.

I might not be the best one to give advice, though. I'm going through kind of the same thin
Exhibit A -> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4143940/
But I haven't given up yet, nor will I ever.
Exhibit B -> http://www.furaffinity.net/journals.....flippingninja/

I might come off as being an asshole right now, but if your anything like me, which I assume you are; you should appreciate what I have to say a lot more than blind sympathy...

This Definately kills my mood I've so carefully set up, but that second link is supposed to be this
-> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4151677/

Just... Get a grip on your self - for me.
I don't like seeing people suffer like I do when I can so clearly see the way out, painful as it might be.

don't worry, you're totally right
truly inspirational words you've found there actually

the problem with 'being me' is that I'm not very good at communicating with people. I *suppose* that's also the reason I feel like getting no attention for sharing my artwork here
aand that (understand it or not) is heavily disturbing me
I've been having motivational problems from that source time and time again, often ending with that "Why do I actually draw?" question
also art isn't my actual job, just a hobby for me. so it's hard for me to find some goal I really want to achieve without being totally out of reach

in short, yet more calm words
I need to receive appreciation for what I'm doing, otherwise I don't get to see much sense in it.
and that's exactly what happened lately


oh well anyway,
seeing that some people actually read what I wrote was a wonderful surprise and cheerup already, so thank you very much for your comments! really!

I'm really glad I could help you cheer up with my extended metaphors. I'm relieved that it helped rather than making you more depressed... ^^

meh.. depressed is the wrong word
uneasy/angry at myself would fit better <.<

but yeah, it helped anyway~

:( ... *hugs tight*

wow, thank you!
no, really, thank you a lot! that I received a few comments on this really is pretty much a cheerup

*is not used to hugs*
*hugs back anyway*

I'm glad it cheered you up. ^-^