I want to get it out of the way cuz it's fucking stuck in my head.



Positives this year:

Plus one good friend
Plus like, 6 good buddies
Plus one Jack O'Reiley Daniels
Plus on bottle of Jack Daniels
More motivation than before
A bag I never thought I'd get
A computer I never thought I'd get
So-so relationship with dad
Somewhat decent relationship with mother
This year in summary:

I only remember the last six months or so. Before that, I draw a complete gray space.

Musta been filled with lots of internet and pointless stuff.

But, I think in september I found MLP:FiM. I watched it, and decided to get my butt in gear. But between August to now, about 4 months, I've made personally monumental jumps in motivation, purpose, acquirement, and just things in general.

My art went from 0 productivity to literally 6000% in three weeks. I blame Jade for that, as much as she will deny it.

I've partially gotten my shit together. I know what I want to do with college, and have a rough idea for what I want to do with my life, at least from a hobby perspective and from a business perspective.

I learned I'm something short of a country bumpkin, and of the last couple of days, completely unfamiliar with the world, at least in terms of sports, art, modern culture I think is the word.

I've also become somewhat of a shut in. I don't know why or how, if I'm introverted, anti social, or simply prefer to be inside.

Negatives this year:

I have found I have zip in the friend folder when my one good friend isn't around
Shitty relationship with brother
Broke
Probably overweight, starting to look like a preggant man
Out of shape
Lack of direction
Way too much wasted time
Loss of Jack O'Rielly Daniels
I should really make some more friends. Or more people to talk to. Or get better at being interpersonal. I only talk about food with new people usually.

My brother is a dick. Won't tell me anything, just rag on me for loosing his dogs. I don't know what to do with it.

I need to budget better and not buy such expensive and frivolous things. I'm going to start just buying what I planned to, save the rest in an untouchable bank account, meaning money goes in, but don't come out.

I need to exercise. I sit a lot and my lower legs swell and it's not nice. I got to put my feet up this weekend a lot at my brother's house and my boots are still loose from not being swollen. I'm starting to get a bad gut and get winded easily. Need more field trainings. This falls into the bad discipline thing and the not wanting to go outside for anything, including food.

I don't really have a direction; enlisting was the one sure thing no matter what, and I turned down my chance to sign up because of some woman. I might still enlist, but much farther down the line.

Since I don't know where I'm going, I've wasted a ton of time just sitting around. I could've been drawing or learning instrument or going to classes. I sat on my ass and oggled shit I didn't even need.

Jack died from parvo. I didn't have money to get him vaccinated so that's all I have to say about that.

In review:

I wasted a lot of time. I'm also catching up on last year where I did even worse. Being able to look back at this short time period of improvement has mad me hopeful that I can really get my shit together and make something of myself instead of a fucking shit log bagging off other people.

I'm liking the direction that I'm taking myself in. It's new, it's something I've never been good at and I'm slowly seeing myself grow most notably though my art. My boxes are getting boxier and my ponies are getting well...pony-y.

I honestly can't wait to get my shit together and do something as big as a GoRuck challenge. I'm scared shitless of doing it right now because I'm so out of shape.

So with that, next part.

Next years motto: Get it started, get it done, get some more.



This means for me to get started on things, instead of letting them sit and evaporate into air. Get it started, work on it till its done, then go back for seconds. Clean your plate then get some more. I've never finished a project any longer than a few days, seriously, even in gradeschool and college.

I mean to temper myself and change that through art.

Goals for next year:

Get in shape
Continue doing/improving art
Do a Goruck Challenge
Wear out some gear
Work to get MV bigger
Go back to school and get your goddamn degrees
Maybe make some friends
Maybe go back to MMA
Read more books and articles consistently
Simple and easy goals as long as I stay ontop of things and keep up with them, vigilant on them and continually doing them. Art and getting in shape I just need to keep doing. Doing and trying new things and having fun.

Goruck Challenge is dependent on getting in shape. Those are killer challenges, but I'm excited just thinking about it, so I should do one.

Wearing out gear and getting MV bigger fall into the same pipe as well, since gear reviews make up a huge part of MV.

Going back to school probably in summer since this spring semester I'm pretty much fucked for since bills due and registry for classes.

Maybe I'll make more friends doing all this stuff. Same with MMA. Those I'm iffy about.

I need to read more. I'm so unread, uncultured, uncouth, uneducated. Unsmert

Things that didn't make the cut:

Black smithing, music making, learning an instrument, rebuilding an engine, building a relationship with brother, becoming better read

Why? Well, I just need coal for black smithing, but between learning to art and college and stuff, I'd never have time for it. Same with musics and engine building. And the relationship with brother just isn't feasible.

Becoming better read would come about reading more.

This time next year:

I want to look back, read this, check off everything at least once. I'll have myself a bottle of mead and call it a day.



So yeah. I'm gonna go back to drawing