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Fan. Fucking. Tastic.
13 years ago
Well, I can consider myself an absolute failure now.
I failed three of my four classes at college, and I'm dropping out.
They don't give dorm rooms to people with an average lower than 1.5
And since our house is 3 1/2 hours away, I won't be able to commute.
So yeah, I fucking failed.
I failed my dad, who had worked his ass off to help me get there.
I failed the people who gave me money to get this laptop for my classes.
I failed my entire family, who believed in me.
And worst of all, I failed myself.
I had finally become semi-independent, and now it's all gone.
Fuck me.
I'm a goddamn flunkie.
So yeah, I'm gonna be a little down for a while.
God fucking dammit.
I'm such a stupid sack of shit.
If you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go curl up in a corner and die.
Fucking disgrace.
I failed three of my four classes at college, and I'm dropping out.
They don't give dorm rooms to people with an average lower than 1.5
And since our house is 3 1/2 hours away, I won't be able to commute.
So yeah, I fucking failed.
I failed my dad, who had worked his ass off to help me get there.
I failed the people who gave me money to get this laptop for my classes.
I failed my entire family, who believed in me.
And worst of all, I failed myself.
I had finally become semi-independent, and now it's all gone.
Fuck me.
I'm a goddamn flunkie.
So yeah, I'm gonna be a little down for a while.
God fucking dammit.
I'm such a stupid sack of shit.
If you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go curl up in a corner and die.
Fucking disgrace.
Don't let this get you down. You are very intelligent and I know you can do it! -hugs close- Don't give up!
I want to thank you and hug you...
But he wants to tell you to shove it and go to hell.
And the shy one's whimpering in the shadows...
We don't know what to do...
Can you...help us?
Please?
We can't do this ourselves.
We're lost and confused.
Everything was so perfect...
So...wonderful...
But why...?
Why did we ruin our perfection?!
Why?!
It may mean that you took on too many classes...that you tried to take on too much at one time...that you stretched your mind too thin in an attempt to appease others...I don't know...
But I do know that you are very smart...that you shouldn't give up...because even if you don't believe in yourself, I know you can do it...I believe you can do it....all you have to do...is dust yourself off...say you won't give up...and try again :3
We'll be outcasts...
Branded as liars and failures by our own family!
Rejected by the ones we love...
A constant regret...in our...parents' eyes..
What...have...we done?
-curls up and cries-
Plus you have me, and various friends on FA who would never reject you...and only encourage you to keep moving forward...to never give up! Because you are loved!
I know, I for one, love you very much...
but we can't seem to keep going...
everything's....spiraling away from us...
We...I...just don't want to go on anymore...
finish...what I failed to do all those years ago...
-eyes soften and she holds you back to her chest and sighs- I believe in you, Z. I know you can do this, just push through it...like I know you can...
But why?!
Everything is hopeless!
I'm a college drop-out...
I don't have a penny to my name...
And worst of all, I have no one who holds my heart...
So don't give up hon...your love could be right around the corner and you not even realize it...
-kisses forehead and then your cheek and whites your tears away-
As for your college...just regroup and try again...study as much as you can...and maybe get a part time job? It might help saving up money to do things with :3
-nuzzles your cheek and purrs-
I've waited for years...
The more I try, the more it hurts.
Why must I wait?
So much heart ache and pain on both of our ends...and yet...we will always work through it...
-kisses all over your face- It will happen, lovey...I know it will...I can't believe you don't already have someone! I would have snatched you up long ago :3 So just...keep being you hon...the fun love able guy I've come to love and care for...and that special someone will find you...
I wish I had met you sooner as well.
You seem pretty happy with Panda though.
I found this not too long ago...
http://imgur.com/gallery/xQ3Zr
I am very happy with Panda...he's my other half as corny as that sounds. I will forever cherish the day I met him :3
-snuggles- That's all I can ask...is that you go for it...that you try...I love you hon
Thanks Kuku.
I love you too. ^-^
-snuggles and rubs face against yours and purrs-
If ever you have these feelings again please...you won't bother me at all to just note me, even if it's only to vent ok? I love you so much, hon! -sends as much love as she can through her iPad to you-
Alright love.
I'll do that if it happens again.
...But I'll try to carry off a little darkness on my back,.'Till things are brighter, I'm the Man In Black