I miss the days of my highschool years, staying up to all hours of the night reading furry porn on YiffStar. I've always been attracted to dangerous and forbidden things, so it's damn near impossible to recapture that feeling now that I'm out of the closet and you know… an adult with no bed time. I would scour that site every single night looking for the best of the best, and when I found a nice medium length story or an ongoing series I would sit there in my dark room, my brother asleep and read away, my mouse on the minimize button just in case I'd hear a noise.

I would read all manner of material on furry; wiki pages, furry site f.a.q.'s, personal profiles, old defunct 90's and early 00's furry websites. I fell in love with it, it was exactly what I was looking for in life: a home. It amazed me that such an accepting community existed, one that took in any person for who they were. It was years before I attended my first con, I did it in secrecy because I was still in the closet, but I was 20 then and ready to experience this world firsthand. I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about when I say that I experienced an overwhelming sense of being home from the moment I entered the con hotel.

Rare was the occasion I would actually fap to the stories. I genuinely loved reading them, no matter how bad they really were. But eventually I graduated to pictures too. When I think back to those nights the feelings of nostalgia are just so intense, they are probably the fondest memories I have from my high school years. I wish I could get that back but I just don't enjoy the bad stories like I used to, the good stories are in short supply or are hidden away, and well… I'm just plain too lazy to go looking. Not to mention, my alone time is severely limited, not that I'm complaining. Having a boyfriend is wonderful and I wouldn't trade my lovely fox for anything.

I just hope someday I will get back into it like I used to be. I love being a furry, I love furridom, and I love every single person that is a part of it. <3