Self Loathing.
Why?
No idea...
It's gotten so bad I haven't even moved out of bed today with the exception of getting a shower. I think something is wrong with me. Like I don't want to do shit and everything seems stupid and pointless. Sleeping seems pointless, eating seems pointless, trying to set goals seems pointless, trying to actually figure out what I want to do in life, pointless. Everything. Pointless.

I'm not usually like this, so this feeling of overwhelming self hate feels... strange. I don't like this feeling... truly I don't.

No body reads these though so I can safely just mull over things.