So just about everything in my life is negative right now. I'm struggling to cope with anything, even the little things, and this is the only place I can just rant about this without my family or friends finding it.

I just can't deal with this work. The constant deadlines. My friends thinking they're not bang out of order for going ON AND ON about something which is clearly making my life that much more traumatic. Some friends?

I just hate that I'm constantly stressed and worried and I can't even bring myself to work on anything anymore. I just want to find a corner and hide in it, where nobody can get to me. At least then nothing else can make things worse.

Ugh sorry everyone, pelase do not feel the need to reply to this ... I need a place to rant. And the internet is the place to do that, in my opinion. I've tried writing things down in a letter to myself or whatnot and it just doesn't work.

I'm getting there with commissions slowly, but I'm just stressing about even things that don't need to be stressed about. Ugh. I hate you, school. I hate how my friends aren't being friends when I need it most. And why can't someone just speak their freaking mind and put half of this to an end?

I keep going through spurts of fursuit work (commissions) because I just need to bury myself in it for a minute. Problem is, I'm not working in the order I really should be.

Bottom line ... I'm irritable right now. I've been slowly slipping downwards for a few days, DESPITE that I've just had time off fo christmas and my birthday and my New York trip ... I've come back feeling worse than when I left. I don't know how or why.

No, I don't expect any replies or anything here - I'm not giving anywhere near enough details for anyone to be able to help, but my gosh I'm reaching that breaking point now. Thanks for reading if you have, I hope, like many of my journal rants, that this will help even slightly.

~Kloof