We're not having any issues between us or anything....

So Dylan joined the army reserves and got accepted yesterday. He's going to Fort Jackson in South Carolina for 10 weeks for training and then another 23 weeks for job training. He leaves March 1st and his job training starts in May. He gets "family time" between trainings, but only for people there, he doesn't get to come home to visit. I can't see him for 7 months, the longest we've ever spent apart was 2 weeks :'P So after he goes the next time I'll see him is in November. I was really looking forward to him coming camping this year and spending time with him. Blah. A 2-way plain ticket is about $500 and I can't drive out there because it takes 40 hours and $500 just for 1-way and I would miss school around finals prep time.

I don't know if he can use internet or cell phone while training, but he's going to give me the address we can write and mail things.

Yesterday I couldn't stop crying no matter how much I tried, but I know there are many more tears to come. And I just felt like that time when you are almost asleep but you still know what's going on around you, just all day. I know I worried him by acting that way....but I'll be ok...I have to be.

And it's not like I have a month to spend with him before he leaves, school starts on Jan 28th so now I only have 4 weekends to be with him. Maybe he'll let me drive him to the airport if I can.

This is going to be very difficult for me, I get depressed just after 1 week and can barely bring myself to do my schoolwork; but I'm gonna have to pull through it, I don't want him to come back to me and I'm a total wreck xD;; But I know it's going to be hard on him too, he misses me just as much as I miss him when we are apart.

He did this so he wouldn't have to move to Hawaii with his dad, but now I'm thinking it's the same thing. No one knows if his dad is even going to get the job in Hawaii so he might not even move, but then again he would keep applying for places probably out of state, maybe even out of the country.

I would very much like to go visit him after the 10 weeks, I don't know if that would make it easier or harder for the next 23 weeks.....I'll ask my parents if they can help pay for my ticket.

I need a job... I'll find something in summer so I don't have to worry about work AND school, then I can schedule next semester around work.

Maybe by the time he comes back we can rent an apartment since we'll both have jobs......that would be really nice......