Anyone who has been following this account has noticed a huge lack of artwork that has been uploaded in the past year. There are several contributors to why there is so little of it, but I do believe one of the major contributors is the hindering that my antidepressants have had on my creative drive. I've watched myself go from wanting to draw to not having any desire to draw whatsoever. I have sat at my desk staring at a blank piece of paper, twirling a pencil between my finger and my mind is as blank as the piece of paper in front of me. It's caused much alarm and despair as I'm currently taking another antidepressant that is /supposed/ to help with the desire to do nothing creatively. One makes me feel like a zombie and the other isn't doing what it claims to do.

I'm fed up with this and have made a decision to talk to my doctor that oversees my antidepressants and see if something can be done about it. I want to ween myself off the ones that make me zombie-like and stay on the one that is supposed to help with depression while not inhibiting the desire to draw and be overall creative. On top of this, I will (with the okay from my doctor) be taking St John's Wart too, as is a natural herbal way to help with one's depression. My goal in all this is to try and get back that creative spark that I feel has been snuffed out months and months ago.

I have no idea what to expect, but all I can do is hope that, in time, I will start drawing again because I actually want to again.

Here's hoping!