Suddenly, out of nowhere, a furious bout of depression.
just feeling overall discard-able.
like.. how are they all doing it..
people just show up one day and they have a beautiful love story just tucked under their arm
And there's nothing to hold against them.
only the question
what am i doing?
how am i missing these chance meetings, magical moments and how is it i feel just like a 15 yr old virgin again.
somehow beneath the dating radar completely :\...
this isn't some real existential meaningful lament @_@
I'm not looking for real dissection of all my problems or everyone's methods of finding people..
I like that chance meetin.. letting it find you,
it just seems sometimes that i'm not really worth searching for :\
just really bummed out.
Maybe it's just payback for something really stupid i did.
well i've learned my lesson.. just make it stop x_x