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13 years ago
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It has taken me this long to get myself together just enough to be able to type this...
Last night st almost 11 pm Mountain time here in the states, my phone rang. and when I looked it was my stepmother calling. First thought, "Finally, dad's calling me back, guess his phone died and he is using hers." So when I answered it, I was not expecting what I got...
It was my Stepmother, screaming into the phone, "Oh my god Melissa, John's dead, he's dead!"... I didnt believe her, thought it was a joke... "I just got home and found him on the floor, we are going to run to the er with the ambulance oh god what am i going to do." This was when I realized it was real and everything started clicking.... then, i started screaming and crying, i couldnt stop... my dad, the man that raised me and kept me alive all these years was gone....
I told her i would meet her there and i hung up, called Walmart, where my husband worked, and from what i found out later last night/thismorning, was that i scared the crap out of the woman that answered the line last night because i remember screaming. "I need to speak to <Husband's name here> Right NOW he works maintenance, it's an emergency.. get him on the line NOW!!!" when he came on the line I quickly relayed that My stepmother called, saying dad was dead and we had to get to the er, cause that was where they were going to go.
It didnt take him long to get home they let him out those doors instantly, he and I rushed to the hospital, me hyperventalating in the seat, freaking out, thinking it was all a bad dream, begging it to be a nightmare, cause things like this dont happen, I had just talked to him this morning.. we were making plans for a fish fry Sunday, this can't just happen to us now... no way..
I got to the hospital and didnt even wait for the car to stop completely, I jumped out as fast as I could and gimped my ass inside, as soon as I had the attention of the night guard, I started demanding to know where my stepmother was, ... Mind you, She works there, she had just gotten off shift..
They told me she had already left, gone home, and I told them that my father had just died as i had been told and she told me to meet her there, nothing clicked for them, they didnt know me, but then, I didnt know this crew, i only knew the ones in the back and on the 2nd and 3rd floors.. ...They asked me who my father was, so they could check around and I bellowed at them, "John Strozier, Charlee Strozier's HUSBAND.. MY Father!" And that was when it all clicked to them and they started scrambling, it was one of their own, someone they knew had just lost a loved one and they started flying around.. I was falling to my knees, saying the words again just hit me like a hammer and took all the air out of me, hell it took everything out of me.. By now, my husband was coming inside from parking the car as the admit nurse was running into the ER to see what she could find out. Some of the drs and nurses from back there came out into the front, but stayed in the trauma room trying to keep out of sight so they could hear what was transpiring. We ended up calling my stepmother's Cell, only cause I could varify the last 4 digits of it and then they completely believed me, cause she answered it and told them that the coroner was there, and they were just going to take him to the morgue, it was far to late to try and do anything...
She had gone to work at 3, i had started calling him at 4.... and it was now, after 11 ... he was long since gone, and i never even knew, i had wondered why he never answered his phone... and now, things start to weigh in on my mind... why didn't i just go out there like i wanted to, so that i could bring out the rest of the stuff for the fry that I had just gotten in the mail, the stuff I had just ordered special for this, for him.. If I had gone out there, could i maybe have saved him, could i have helped him, prevented this? I dont know, and now, we never will,
She didnt want to do an autopsy, she wanted to just accept this, but, I demanded one, I have to know what caused his death, He was my father for 31 years, and only her husband for a handfull, this was my right and I am getting it, I have to know, for my own sake of mind, and I pray that he felt no pain, that it was instant cause if he suffered, it is going to kill me..
Rest in peace dad, I loved you more than I could ever express.. Rest now for you are with mom in heaven, and she guide you and keep you safe there.. Lacey, Booboo, and Krystal are there too Our 3 dogs will protect you, and love you. You will be forever missed, but always, held forever highly in our hearts.. I love you dad, always and forever... gods.. i miss you so much already i just... Goodbye
Last night st almost 11 pm Mountain time here in the states, my phone rang. and when I looked it was my stepmother calling. First thought, "Finally, dad's calling me back, guess his phone died and he is using hers." So when I answered it, I was not expecting what I got...
It was my Stepmother, screaming into the phone, "Oh my god Melissa, John's dead, he's dead!"... I didnt believe her, thought it was a joke... "I just got home and found him on the floor, we are going to run to the er with the ambulance oh god what am i going to do." This was when I realized it was real and everything started clicking.... then, i started screaming and crying, i couldnt stop... my dad, the man that raised me and kept me alive all these years was gone....
I told her i would meet her there and i hung up, called Walmart, where my husband worked, and from what i found out later last night/thismorning, was that i scared the crap out of the woman that answered the line last night because i remember screaming. "I need to speak to <Husband's name here> Right NOW he works maintenance, it's an emergency.. get him on the line NOW!!!" when he came on the line I quickly relayed that My stepmother called, saying dad was dead and we had to get to the er, cause that was where they were going to go.
It didnt take him long to get home they let him out those doors instantly, he and I rushed to the hospital, me hyperventalating in the seat, freaking out, thinking it was all a bad dream, begging it to be a nightmare, cause things like this dont happen, I had just talked to him this morning.. we were making plans for a fish fry Sunday, this can't just happen to us now... no way..
I got to the hospital and didnt even wait for the car to stop completely, I jumped out as fast as I could and gimped my ass inside, as soon as I had the attention of the night guard, I started demanding to know where my stepmother was, ... Mind you, She works there, she had just gotten off shift..
They told me she had already left, gone home, and I told them that my father had just died as i had been told and she told me to meet her there, nothing clicked for them, they didnt know me, but then, I didnt know this crew, i only knew the ones in the back and on the 2nd and 3rd floors.. ...They asked me who my father was, so they could check around and I bellowed at them, "John Strozier, Charlee Strozier's HUSBAND.. MY Father!" And that was when it all clicked to them and they started scrambling, it was one of their own, someone they knew had just lost a loved one and they started flying around.. I was falling to my knees, saying the words again just hit me like a hammer and took all the air out of me, hell it took everything out of me.. By now, my husband was coming inside from parking the car as the admit nurse was running into the ER to see what she could find out. Some of the drs and nurses from back there came out into the front, but stayed in the trauma room trying to keep out of sight so they could hear what was transpiring. We ended up calling my stepmother's Cell, only cause I could varify the last 4 digits of it and then they completely believed me, cause she answered it and told them that the coroner was there, and they were just going to take him to the morgue, it was far to late to try and do anything...
She had gone to work at 3, i had started calling him at 4.... and it was now, after 11 ... he was long since gone, and i never even knew, i had wondered why he never answered his phone... and now, things start to weigh in on my mind... why didn't i just go out there like i wanted to, so that i could bring out the rest of the stuff for the fry that I had just gotten in the mail, the stuff I had just ordered special for this, for him.. If I had gone out there, could i maybe have saved him, could i have helped him, prevented this? I dont know, and now, we never will,
She didnt want to do an autopsy, she wanted to just accept this, but, I demanded one, I have to know what caused his death, He was my father for 31 years, and only her husband for a handfull, this was my right and I am getting it, I have to know, for my own sake of mind, and I pray that he felt no pain, that it was instant cause if he suffered, it is going to kill me..
Rest in peace dad, I loved you more than I could ever express.. Rest now for you are with mom in heaven, and she guide you and keep you safe there.. Lacey, Booboo, and Krystal are there too Our 3 dogs will protect you, and love you. You will be forever missed, but always, held forever highly in our hearts.. I love you dad, always and forever... gods.. i miss you so much already i just... Goodbye
Just try and stay calm, lean on your husband for support and you'll get through this. You'll be in my thoughts Rose.
V.