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Long monsterous vent on my art status. I'm sorry :c
13 years ago
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Hey loves! I'm sorry I've been dead.
To be completely honest with you, I can't draw anymore. I've been trying over and over and over again for about three months, but I'm just in so much of a slump with my life I can never bring myself to enjoy what I draw, to finish anything, to be ok with the result of how it's going.
I have a little bit more success with traditional art over digital, but I love digital art. I can't bring myself to draw my characters. I can't bring myself to even attempt backgrounds. I can't do anything. But I want to so badly. It just feels as if it's all the same and I'm not progressing.
School is affecting it, home life is affecting it, trying to carry out a social life is affecting it, but to be honest with you, the biggest thing that's affecting it is that I just can't. All I can do is lay in bed when nothing else needs to be done. Or even when other stuff needs to be done. I'm too stressed anymore. Is this what growing up is? It's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do about it. It's not a burden I need to put on the rest of the world. But I need to vent.
I'm the same person I've been since I was about 15-16, only with a little more maturity. Everyone else is changing on me, and I guess i've probably changed too, but my brain is still stuck there. I still feel my friends are the same people, and that they think about me just as much as I do them, but in reality, those people have almost all disappeared to pursue different and more exciting things. The same with my art really. I still feel my art is the same, and I know I need to improve, and need to change with it as I grow, but I can't seem to let go of what I thought was good back then. I can't bring myself to learn or change it, and the things I have changed, sometimes I feel they used to be better when I was that age. I don't know if anything I'm saying is really making sense. Or tying together at all. Maybe it just seems like a load of stupid venty points that are in no way related to art at all.
Art, drawing, painting has always been a huge passion in my life. And I know growing up changes you. I know it can be for the good, so that you can discover new factors in your life, and maybe something you enjoy more. But I seriously don't want that. I just want to put everything out into a big venty drawing. But I can't seem to do it.
Stress is attacking me too much to do the things I love and it sucks. I hope this changes soon. And then I can spew wonderful art at you again. And maybe it could even happen soon. Maybe a vent is all I need or needed. But until further notice, bare with me. I'm trying. Thank you so much <3
To be completely honest with you, I can't draw anymore. I've been trying over and over and over again for about three months, but I'm just in so much of a slump with my life I can never bring myself to enjoy what I draw, to finish anything, to be ok with the result of how it's going.
I have a little bit more success with traditional art over digital, but I love digital art. I can't bring myself to draw my characters. I can't bring myself to even attempt backgrounds. I can't do anything. But I want to so badly. It just feels as if it's all the same and I'm not progressing.
School is affecting it, home life is affecting it, trying to carry out a social life is affecting it, but to be honest with you, the biggest thing that's affecting it is that I just can't. All I can do is lay in bed when nothing else needs to be done. Or even when other stuff needs to be done. I'm too stressed anymore. Is this what growing up is? It's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do about it. It's not a burden I need to put on the rest of the world. But I need to vent.
I'm the same person I've been since I was about 15-16, only with a little more maturity. Everyone else is changing on me, and I guess i've probably changed too, but my brain is still stuck there. I still feel my friends are the same people, and that they think about me just as much as I do them, but in reality, those people have almost all disappeared to pursue different and more exciting things. The same with my art really. I still feel my art is the same, and I know I need to improve, and need to change with it as I grow, but I can't seem to let go of what I thought was good back then. I can't bring myself to learn or change it, and the things I have changed, sometimes I feel they used to be better when I was that age. I don't know if anything I'm saying is really making sense. Or tying together at all. Maybe it just seems like a load of stupid venty points that are in no way related to art at all.
Art, drawing, painting has always been a huge passion in my life. And I know growing up changes you. I know it can be for the good, so that you can discover new factors in your life, and maybe something you enjoy more. But I seriously don't want that. I just want to put everything out into a big venty drawing. But I can't seem to do it.
Stress is attacking me too much to do the things I love and it sucks. I hope this changes soon. And then I can spew wonderful art at you again. And maybe it could even happen soon. Maybe a vent is all I need or needed. But until further notice, bare with me. I'm trying. Thank you so much <3
I can only think of two suggestions:
(1) If you're feeling down and motiveless constantly, and lying in bed instead of doing anything because you don't have energy - you may be suffering from clinical depression. I had that problem for years before a doctor diagnosed it, and thanks to that, I'm much better now. I'm not saying this is happening to you, but it's happened to me and it's worth checking.
(2) As for wanting to expand your art - believe it or not, I've actually dabbled in art myself, before becoming lazy and just paying others to do it for me.
I found that one of the best ways to explore new fields and techniques was to look at other artists, and learn to imitate their style. Because if you do it right, it isn't just copying - you are studying their perceptions and their technique, which in turn enhances your own.
Some humble examples from my gallery, photoshopped to fit in with the originals:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1074025/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1072640/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1078670/
Of course, these are all classical oil paintings, and I've just added photographed parts with some touching up to fit the style. But even that taught me a lot!
If you find some artists who you admire, and learn to draw or paint in their style, you'll learn a lot and enhance your own style!
Good luck, and I hope you feel better soon!
Thank you so much :3 I shall keep looking through them and maybe they shall help ^^ <3