whats goin on? >:0

i feel like lesser of a person cause im nobodies important someone... i haven't given my heart out enough, i dont know how and its eating at me slowly... why I've been single and by myself a lot of the time.

i regret being withdrawn... its unattractive

Oh i know how you feel its just the Loneliness it eats at us but doesnt make you a lesser person you have so many of those around you im the same im not very open im very withdrawn i dont open my heart to any1 but one person you will be somebody important someone it just takes a simple friendly chat till you do usually you find someone just by having a causal conversation,meeting, or saying hello tht what happened to me i felt the same way for a loooooooong time felt like i was turning cold but... -hugs tight- it will all be okay takes time im here for ya if you want a chat

thanks bud, even though we just started talking, you definitely have a good heart, your bf has a keeper ;)

hehe thanks alot its time for you to be happy its just take some time!

it's never too late man. *hug*

*hugs back* thanks, one of my plans is more gift art to the friends i think about, to give away my time to make them happy.

just gotta be a good friend, no need to shower them with gifts. you're a great guy and always have been to me :)

I'm really sorry about all this :(

I think it shows a lot to the kind of person you are that you care so much and want to help others feel good.
If you ever need a pair of ears I'm around to talk :).

Hope you feel better bud -hug-

i cant mope and beat myself up forever but i really do need to fix myself as a person, im at 20% when i should be at 110%

I think you can do anything you set your heart on doing. I really don't think you're as bad a guy as you're putting yourself to be though. I mean I think you're totally rad after talking to you for the time we have.

I'm kinda clueless about who was lost, but I do know that sometimes you just can't do much to help people with that regardless of how much you want to. The best thing you can do is just to be there for them when they finally start coming around to the point where they do need someone.

And if you're still calling each other friend that you haven't fucked anything up.

in my mind i think im their friend but it doesn't feel like a two way road. you are right though, i should be more patient and help when the time is right.

i have to fix old relationships that i failed to keep strong.

Seems like a good test for these friendships then. The best friends that I have can go for quite a long time with complete silence, but when we do talk again its as if that quiet period wasn't even there and I tend to look at that as a pretty strong tie right there. Hopefully that's the case for these friendships you're talking about and it doesn't need any fixing at all.

Sometimes, it's possible to be too much of a friend, or to feel as if nothing is wrong, while the other person is looking at you oddly, wondering what you're doing.

Before you ramp up your attempts to be more of a friend... find out how much of a friend you are now. If you have a true friend, then you can just ask them if they feel like you're being a good enough friend to them without their getting upset about it, and they'll respond in kind, honestly and directly. Most real friends will laugh your uncertainty off, do something to make you smile and just keep on being good friends with you.

i definitely got to put more effort on my people skills, i don't open up enough. even posting this journal was hard to do since im sharing my real feelings on things. the fear of feeling weak

lol. Fear. Weakness.

Fear is a reasoning, instinctual reaction to something potentially dangerous, and therefore nothing to worry about. Just consider what you do and say when you feel it, and your surroundings. You'll be fine, usually.

Weakness is a concept. I would personally say you've shown considerable personal strength in working through your fear and still seeking the help of others with your problems, and looking for someone to talk to about them, than you would have by keeping it all inside or to yourself when you feel lost on a subject. "The only bad question is one left unasked." Remember that.

There is no weakness in feeling worry or fear, or in asking someone for a hand. We're human; we're kinda built to ask for help once in a while. It's actually ok to let someone give you advice or a hand and it doesn't make you seem weak at all, as long as you don't become dependent on anyone, and still make you own decisions in the end.

*hugs tight* I think you're a good man. You're strong, caring, and do what it takes to help. I'm terribly sorry of what you're going through. Hope things get better for you.

Don't feel bad Kio, I felt the same, all you can is try again. I really know how you feel bud, and the people who will care about you will show support. *hugs*

*hugs tight* Actually I've always thought you were a pretty nice fellow. You may be a bit distant, but that doesn't make you unimportant or not liked.

I'm a very shy fellow so I struggle a lot with showing emotions as openly as I should and it makes me come across as an ass more often than it should. :(

If ya need an ear to chew on don't hesitate to grab me.

Man oh man ,

I have known ya for a good long time and although we do not really hang out much, I have basically come to the understanding that you are a busy guy.
Just understand we are all around for ya , all you need to do is ask.


We should plan to hang out.


Take care buddy



Snugs

DEX

Felt like that before. Never a fun feeling. :/

*hugs* I can relate to what you're going through. In fact, I've been around long enough to have two different perspectives on it. Friends have drifted in and out of my life--drifting in because of my bracing, clear-eyed honesty and drifting out for the same reason. I've passively allowed the relationships to bloom and wither as they will. Now, after years of being alone but never lonely, I've found myself in a position to genuinely need friendships. I'm too embarrassed of my past reckless disregard to ask for companionship and help in the same breath.

Your member page states that your age is 25. Statistically, you have more time available to you than I do. Having both the awareness of a situation and the drive and opportunity to make it better is a wonderful gift for someone your age, or any age for that matter. I wish you the best of luck in whatever action you undertake.

Although we fans are on the other ends of internet connections, we you, Kio.

Hey Kio! *HUGS* I'm in the market for a new Best Friend. :) Let's hang when I get back from France! :)

you are an amazing person and anyone who gets you will be very lucky. I loved hanging with you even though it was short when you lived closeish.

It's just a matter of looking at what you're doing and then coming up with just what is that you're missing that you can address. I remember you already telling me you had a list of stuff you wanna do. You're already on the way there buddy. Just keep your eye on your goals. Don't get too hard on yourself buddy.