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12 years ago
Well... specifically ideas that I just can't get down on paper no matter how hard I try. This, for me, and probably everyone else I bet, is not only frustrating as hell but annoying. Anyway, the picture I've been failing at recently, and is probably going to be commissioned from someone the moment I have money, is one that means quite a lot to me.
It's of a character of mine, named Rin. Aesthetically, she's the same as Mini. She's pretty much exactly the same fursona, just with a different back story and personality. The main thing is that she's a Time Lord, at this point in her 3rd incarnation, and is more than just a little troubled by her past. She's relatively young in the terms of a Time Lord (She's only 237) but death is something that is very much a part of her life and always on her mind. Unlike The Doctor, she's never stayed away from relationships. Her loneliness always drove her to find a lover of some kind, boy or girl. She's had a wife, and I feel it's one of the things that's traumatized her the most. Of course, she doesn't age, so her wife grew old and eventually passed away, while she stayed in the body of a 19 year old. That experience is something that shook her to the very core and because of that, she ran away. She also gained her monicker, "The Runner" from this. Now with that bit of back story out of the way, the thing I wanted to have drawn up is a scene from her travels.
Throughout her experiences and adventures, she comes across a very serene spot on a colonized planet sometime in the future. After spending a bit of time there, she decides to explore a bit further, and stumbles upon a grave site. It's singular, very well taken care of, and is about 100 feet from the edge of a cliff at the bottom of a hill. Upon investigation, she finds out that it's her own.
As a traveler of time and space, she finds this to be a bit too much. She feels that even if given the chance to learn, you should never learn your own fate. You should never know too much about your own future. However, as someone who's old and world weary, even at her relatively "young" age, it's something that kind of puts her at ease. It really relieves her quite a bit, because she knows she really will die one day.
However! There's a catch, that terrifies her greatly. The tombstone is dated 1879, and that alone, for her, is just too much information. Imagine if you knew the date of your last day. Even the year would be just too much. I know for me, it would cause more harm than good. I would definitely live my life to the fullest, and be the best person I could be, especially if that date was relatively close, but still, I think I would end up being depressed more than I could imagine...
It's late. I'm ranting. To get to the point, I really want to get this one done as not only a piece of back story for my character, but as something that means quite a lot to me. Over the last 8 years, 11 people who were very close to me passed away in very unfortunate circumstances, all too young to die... and the concept of death is something that troubles me. I'm honestly terrified of it, but I know one day my time will come, but I always have a feeling that I'll die young. I've lost many a nights sleep over this, believe me :/ So I want to get a picture of Rin sitting in front of her grave in the morning (or evening) light, pondering or even crying over this find. It's really something that means quite a lot to me and no matter what, I'll have it done eventually... I just felt like getting this thought out and seeing what you guys thought of it.
Anyway, it's late, I'm tired. G'night.
It's of a character of mine, named Rin. Aesthetically, she's the same as Mini. She's pretty much exactly the same fursona, just with a different back story and personality. The main thing is that she's a Time Lord, at this point in her 3rd incarnation, and is more than just a little troubled by her past. She's relatively young in the terms of a Time Lord (She's only 237) but death is something that is very much a part of her life and always on her mind. Unlike The Doctor, she's never stayed away from relationships. Her loneliness always drove her to find a lover of some kind, boy or girl. She's had a wife, and I feel it's one of the things that's traumatized her the most. Of course, she doesn't age, so her wife grew old and eventually passed away, while she stayed in the body of a 19 year old. That experience is something that shook her to the very core and because of that, she ran away. She also gained her monicker, "The Runner" from this. Now with that bit of back story out of the way, the thing I wanted to have drawn up is a scene from her travels.
Throughout her experiences and adventures, she comes across a very serene spot on a colonized planet sometime in the future. After spending a bit of time there, she decides to explore a bit further, and stumbles upon a grave site. It's singular, very well taken care of, and is about 100 feet from the edge of a cliff at the bottom of a hill. Upon investigation, she finds out that it's her own.
As a traveler of time and space, she finds this to be a bit too much. She feels that even if given the chance to learn, you should never learn your own fate. You should never know too much about your own future. However, as someone who's old and world weary, even at her relatively "young" age, it's something that kind of puts her at ease. It really relieves her quite a bit, because she knows she really will die one day.
However! There's a catch, that terrifies her greatly. The tombstone is dated 1879, and that alone, for her, is just too much information. Imagine if you knew the date of your last day. Even the year would be just too much. I know for me, it would cause more harm than good. I would definitely live my life to the fullest, and be the best person I could be, especially if that date was relatively close, but still, I think I would end up being depressed more than I could imagine...
It's late. I'm ranting. To get to the point, I really want to get this one done as not only a piece of back story for my character, but as something that means quite a lot to me. Over the last 8 years, 11 people who were very close to me passed away in very unfortunate circumstances, all too young to die... and the concept of death is something that troubles me. I'm honestly terrified of it, but I know one day my time will come, but I always have a feeling that I'll die young. I've lost many a nights sleep over this, believe me :/ So I want to get a picture of Rin sitting in front of her grave in the morning (or evening) light, pondering or even crying over this find. It's really something that means quite a lot to me and no matter what, I'll have it done eventually... I just felt like getting this thought out and seeing what you guys thought of it.
Anyway, it's late, I'm tired. G'night.
