As of Saturday February 9th, 2013 I find myself with out a job again. I'm pretty sad about it too. I actually feel more like I'm mourning the death of a person than the loss of my own job or the closing of a bakery.

BakeryBarn closed its doors for good because with the economy in the shitter people just weren't spending the money on frivolous stuff that they were. Like donuts and cakes.

I already miss my job at BakeryBarn greatly. The people I worked with were awesome. We were truly like a strange...mildly deranged little family. And while I miss my job, my income, and my co workers, I actually miss some of my customers quite a bit.

I find my self mourning the closing of Bakery Barn for the customers more than anything. I felt we truly made a difference to some people and their happiness. We had many grandchildren and children who came in to buy donuts for their parents and grandparents, often for those who lived in homes or were too disabled to get out on their own. They all had a favorite donut, be that a maple iced white filled long john, or an old fashioned sour cream or what ever. It truly made some peoples days...weeks even to be able to get something like that that they loved.

I know logically they'll find something or some where else to get their fix, but I'm still sad for those who're going to miss it. The little girl who'd been coming there since she was 2 years old who'd run up and jump into the owner's arms and have him take her straight to her favorite donut and pick out the best one. The old men who came in for their sweet tooth fix and to flirt with us girls who worked behind the counter to see if we could sass back or blush instead. The mail men who came in for their chocolate fix and a cup of coffee. The husbands who come in at 5:30 in the morning in their house coats and pajamas, waiting till we opened so they could get their pregnant wives a double chocolate cake donut and anything with jelly and don't forget the reesecup cupcake and two chocolate milks. And all the little hurts we healed with smiley face cookies and rainbow tea cookies that made getting a shot better or going to the dentist not so scary.

All of the weddings and anniversaries that we made special and all the birthdays that were true celebrations with cakes that looked like they were out of this world. Frosting magic that made the centerpiece of any get together.

All of that's gone.

No more.

I don't know of anyone else who's mourned loosing their job like I have....

But damnit...I'll miss it.

I'll miss making all of those people happy, warm, content, safe.....

I'm gonna miss making those smiles.

I'm gonna miss that family.

I hope I find another awesome place like that to work, and I hope I get to see it prosper.

I guess these are the reasons I love working in a bakery....Why I love cake decorating.


But the good news is I've been applying everywhere and I've got an interview today. It's at another retail bakery, like when I worked for Walmart, but should be tolerable and includes doing donut finishing which was early in the morning and I loved it.

I have also interviewed at a Union Bakery...which was more like a sweat shop for cakes and it kinda made me sad. The pay would've been awesome. starting at nigh $14 an hour, but the environment was very harsh.

I'd love to get back into another small bakery and keep it.

So wish me luck!